bssr, i could nearly have written your message verbatim. just a couple weeks ago, i ended a 25-yr. friendship. very similar circumstances.
yes, it leaves me without the amount of friends i'm used to, sadly, but, like you, i know i deserve better. i'm in the 'boat', setting sail for healthier relationships because i, too, know now that i deserve them. it was difficult to end it, but honestly, i feel less stress afterwards than keeping it up.
so, kucos to you, sweetie.

i've come to the point where i'd rather have me much more alone than the toxicity i've attracted in the past. love and hugs to you, and well done!
