Emotional swings....

[Boatsetsailrose]

Hi
Sometimes I think to myself do I have bi polar 2.. Two  weeks ago  I was on top of the world everything was rosy... Elevated in emotion.. Wanting to socialise ++ this week its like I'm a different person.. Low mood and motivation, hate my life, bleak Outlook feeling lonely.. Etc.

It does seem my circumstances dictate ie I was away and now I'm home and a bit lost. Its just my emotional life seems so extreme.. Maybe it's just normal maybe I'm reading into it too much? I wonder how normal people experience emotion.
Maybe it's I get scared when I feel. Dispondent

[Jdog]

Boats-

I'm so sorry you are feeling lost and despondent.  Can you recall another time you felt this way and maybe how you were able to pull through it?  Some of my methods of getting recentered include exercise, playing music, journaling, and sometimes meditation.  Please be really gentle with yourself during this time.  You may be doing some valuable processing and that takes time and can be painful.  The rewards can be great, though.

Anyways, I just wanted to let you know you aren't alone.  I also have been going through a lot of painful stuff recently and I want you to know that it won't last forever.

[Boatsetsailrose]

Thank you jdog for your lovely and kind reply... Yes  to be gentle with myself a really nice reminder.. There has been a lot going on emotionally and to acknowledge that and allow the space is right where I am..
Sending you best wishes it all passes like clouds in the wind hey... The sun will shine again

[Jdog]

You are very welcome, Boats.  Learning gentleness towards myself has proved both more difficult and more important than I ever knew it would be.  I'm glad you are allowing that safe space for yourself to grow and heal. 

[Three Roses]

I also have a wide range of emotions.    to you, dear bssr.

[MoonBeam]

Hi Boatsetsailrose.  I wanted to say hang in there and me too. It does pass. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Really great reminder from Jdog. There are things I can do that will help me feel better and we deserve gentle kindness and patience, especially when we're struggling. It's really hard to take action or make healthy choices when the heaviness comes though. It's like I forget how and what those things are.

I've been trying to be mindful to ask myself "what's one thing I can do today to take care of me, to bring peace?" Sometimes its just taking a deep breath and telling myself to let it be ok that I'm feeling the way I am. Even if I don't know exactly what I'm feeling. Tricky stuff--feelings. I wouldn't allow myself to experience what I was feeling for years--too afraid I would go under and not come back up. It's still scary, but that is changing, little by little.

I also get really down on myself when I feel like I'm not living up to what or how I think i "should" be and dear inner critic loves berating me for not being enough, for feeling lonely, for hating the way things are. Depression is real. It's a result of complex trauma and when I go down, I go deep. But I'm finally learning some tools to soothe me or to reach out for support when I'm feeling down and beginning to believe I deserve to feel good and that's made a huge difference. We're not in this alone anymore.

Thank you so much for sharing, for reaching out Boats. Thinking of you 

[Boatsetsailrose]

I hear your three roses

[Boatsetsailrose]

Hi moon beam
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'beginning to believe I deserve to feel good and that's made a huge difference. We're not in this alone anymore'
Fabulous, yes I can relate moonbeam the deserving and that I'm good enough what ever the weather