Jumping in

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St.ranger

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Jumping in
« on: July 05, 2019, 11:52:58 AM »
Hello people :)

I found this forum shortly after a visit (one of many over the years) to the local mental health team, where I heard C-PTSD being spoken by a professional for the first time.
I've always known of the details and intricacies of my complexities, because I have obsessed over them, sat with and sutured them, analysed them into oblivion, along with any grasp on "the self" I had.. and as a result, have strayed to professionals many times seeking external recognition and validation, any form of acknowledgement for the way I experience existence, in a hope that I can finally let go and move on.
Each time I've spoken to a professional, I have attempted to reframe the way I see my "nature" based on the latest theory that could explain how I function the way I do..  I lack a certain Anchorage in identity, and so BPD has also been recently mentioned.
There are so many ways to tell and retell a story, it's hard to define or prioritize one truth over another.

So, I guess that's where I am right now, attempting to find a voice that is my own, one that I'm not fearful of and that isn't sounding out echos of the past..
one that can connect me to others rather than isolating further me from them.

So people, I just want to say, thank you for existing, I'm sorry and I hope you're all gaining strength along your journey.

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Tee

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« Reply #1 on: July 05, 2019, 11:59:17 AM »
Welcome there's a lot of good information and stories and support to find here.  I hope you find what your looking for on your journey.
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sanmagic7

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« Reply #2 on: July 05, 2019, 01:12:10 PM »
welcome, stranger, so glad you found us.  hopefully, you'll find connection to the language spoken here, and can be your true self.  a lot of us have found the same frustration w/ the professionals in our lives.  sending you a compassionate hug  :hug:

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notalone

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« Reply #3 on: July 05, 2019, 01:54:15 PM »
one that can connect me to others rather than isolating further me from them.
Welcome. I hope you find some connection here. I have found support and understanding at OOTS.

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« Reply #4 on: July 05, 2019, 02:49:10 PM »
Welcome! You may feel like a stranger elsewhere but here I think you'll find you fit right in. Lots of us describe the feeling of being somehow "other" - or "alien" - and have also described coming here as the first time they felt not alone, and understood. Thanks for joining, glad you're here.
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« Last Edit: July 06, 2019, 04:58:57 PM by Three Roses »

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Kizzie

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« Reply #5 on: July 05, 2019, 04:58:51 PM »
 :yeahthat:  You have a tribe of sorts now Stranger, a place to belong and feel safe in saying what you need/want to so welcome!   :grouphug:

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« Reply #6 on: July 05, 2019, 05:34:57 PM »
Finding a point of grounding, from which to launch your sense of self is a challenge I also struggle with.

I don't feel I have a lot of advice... but a lot of commiseration.

I have found the music, art, and poetry sections on this site a great place to "flesh out" your ghosts.  And, surprisingly to me, validation can be found in these expressions.

Welcome to the forum.

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« Reply #7 on: July 06, 2019, 05:48:45 PM »
Welcome to the forum St.ranger  :heythere:

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« Reply #8 on: July 06, 2019, 07:18:45 PM »
welcome, glad you are here!  :cheer: