Snowdrop's journal

[CactusFlower]

Thank you for checking in! Hope things are going as well as they can for you.

[sanmagic7]

thinking of you, too, snowdrop.  i'm so glad you're feeling some movement in a pos. direction.  here's hoping for more.  love and hugs

[Hope67]

Hi Snowdrop,
Good to hear from you, and hope you recover as each day progresses.   
Hope 

[Not Alone]

Snowdrop, I'm so sorry to hear about your nerve damage. 

[woodsgnome]

Great to see you here again, Snowdrop. I add my best wishes for your recovery from the nerve damage.

As for taking it slow and easy, yeah that's about the best self-care we can find sometimes. We live in a world mad with speed and really too much artificial stimulation. Here too the necessity of breaking away as much as possible and finding a more peaceful flow to life is much needed.



PS -- saw your reference to seeing a version of 'Secret Garden' in your comment on another thread. Anything 'Secret Garden' piques my interest, so I just wanted to point out my favourite version is the multi-episode1975 BBC-TV series (available on YouTube) -- imo its sensitive and evocative treatment based on the book rings the truest of all the versions out there, by far. The others just don't seem to have done so well. I could rattle on and on about it, so better just let it go at that.

[Snowdrop]

Rainy, CactusFlower, San, Hope, Not Alone and Woodsgnome: thank you for your good wishes and support. It means a lot.

Woodsgnome, is the 1975 version still on YouTube? I had a look for it but couldn't find it.

The nerve damage definitely seems to be getting better. It seems to be less affected by stressful things (like the news) which I take as a good sign. I've found doing internal martial arts very helpful, and I've also been taking a multivitamin to make sure my body has everything it needs to help the nerves repair.

Current world events are distressing. I've been comforting parts, and reminding them that I'm here. It's also made me aware of more burdens in my system that parts are carrying. There are generational burdens from previous wars that were passed on to me. Also burdens from the cold war where an undercurrent of constant fear was normalised. Now that I'm aware of these burdens, I want to see if I can ease or release them.

[woodsgnome]

There are different ways to type in the info on the YouTube entry page ... here's a link to the first episode, and for the remaining 6, just type in The Secret Garden, Part 2, 3, 4,5, 6

Hope that works. Anyway, here's the link for Episode 1:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oACHkRRzNow&ab_channel=KindnessisEternal

Hope this works.

[Snowdrop]

Thanks, Woodsgnome. It looks like it's blocked in my country, but I'll see if I can get it elsewhere.

[dollyvee]

Hi Snowdrop,

Hope you find some ease with your nerve damage. It's great that you were able to set some boundaries with your friend who made you feel unsafe 

Hope you find some space to deal with the things coming up for you.

dolly

[Snowdrop]

Thanks, Dolly.

The nerve stuff has been a bit up and down. I'm ok until I'm not, so I'm trying to take each day as it comes, hour by hour.

[Not Alone]

 

[sanmagic7]

sometimes hour by hour is an extraordinary accomplishment, snowdrop.  well done on doing that much for yourself.  i hope it continues to resolve itself and give you relief.  love and hugs

[Snowdrop]

Not Alone and San: 

I'm finding things hard at the moment.

I can't remember if I've explained this before, but any feelings of anxiety I experience makes the nerve damage flare up. This is a bit nasty by itself. The thing I find really difficult is that any flare ups feed back up through my emotions and I get intense anxiety. Throw cptsd into the mix too, and it's bad. It's like getting EFs that are amplified. Things like sleep are affected as well.

[Not Alone]

Snowdrop, that makes sense. It sounds awful. I'm so sorry that you are going through this.

[Snowdrop]

Thank you, Not Alone. That helps me feel less alone.