I don't even know what this is

[dollyvee]

Hi Blueberry,

Good work for spending time with this part.

I'm finding that I have "go-haywire" parts too (though I find haywire difficult as it was something I was called growing up  and know it as something wrong/bad). I've been learning that there's "feelings," or body sensations really, that are associated with these and a lot of the time they're so automatic and ingrained because, as t suggested, they're from such a young age, which makes them difficult for me to "pick out."

Sending you support,
dolly

[Kizzie]

It seems like a sign of health that you call this part by the name Blue BB.  It sounds to me that doing this means the part is integrated and not some weird part you'd rather see gone or that is dissociated from you. 

[Blueberry]

Oh, you're right Kizzie it is! And with this Part integrated, having been able to take form (I have an image of her and it's nothing like what Go-Haywire was) and have her say, all those fears of that particular non-integrated part taking over are gone. The name Blue is not actually connected to Blueberry, Blue doesn't know about the forum, it's not within her world, I'm not holding it from her, she's just not interested.

Thank you for your support, dollyvee. I'm sorry you're triggered by my word usage. I'm actually translating because I always talked about the non-integrated part in the local language, never English, still I want a translation that feels appropriate so that down the line, I recognise what this post was about. Blue doesn't like the name Go-Haywire either, tho she's not triggered, she's just sad about the way she had to act to make me take note.