Any 55+ Thrivers who think, ďIím ready for more but, what?Ē

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micmacin

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Any 55+ Thrivers who think, ďIím ready for more but, what?Ē
« on: October 26, 2019, 01:57:56 PM »
 In retrospect, Iím not sure how I made it this far! Probably a combination of genetics, spirituality, along with some sweet souls who were there when I needed. By all intents, I am successful professionally as a Hospice Social  Worker.  I am now a grandmother, awaiting a second grandchild and have wonderful Colleagues and friends.
But, Iím now 62 and I donít believe I have ever known love as an adult, by an adult. My continuum seems to be, I donít trust anyone but, love everyone. I still have days when if I didnít have some responsibility to something outside of myself, I feel I have no purpose. Over all, all my symptoms have improved but, I will still disassociate and can have emotional flashbacks in some situations. Not so bad in the scheme of my life. I am thankful for my strengths, my intuition, sense of humor and most of all, the ability to see the strength in others. I feel I am ready to move forward, to take a next step but, I donít know what that step is. Iíve been in this ďmeantimeĒ  for too long and I donít fear Iíll loose all Iíve learned but, Iím stuck. Anyone else out there at a similar threshold, who want more but, canít seem to step out of that self that makes everything we do so much harder?

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Kizzie

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Re: Any 55+ Thrivers who think, ďIím ready for more but, what?Ē
« Reply #1 on: October 27, 2019, 02:01:27 PM »
Welcome back Micmacin, I see you haven't been here for a while  :heythere: 

I too am in my 60's and not stuck so much as wondering how much more time I should invest in recovery/healing. It's been a bit of a slog as I'm sure you know and I have wondered a lot recently if I should just invest my time in having more fun, traveling, etc. I'm well enough now, but like you still have symptoms just not as frequently or (generally) intense as they used to be.

I just moved close to a large city from a rural location and there is a lot more choice so I'm hoping to find some therapy that is mind-body oriented versus just talk. While talk therapy helped, based on what I've read I suspect some of the trauma is physical and needs to be released. Anyway, I'm willing to give some somatic oriented therapy a go and see if that takes me a step further. 

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Jazzy

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Re: Any 55+ Thrivers who think, ďIím ready for more but, what?Ē
« Reply #2 on: October 28, 2019, 11:31:03 PM »
I'm younger, but can definitely relate to "I'm ready for more but, what?" I think I have processed and understand what I've been through, so now I just need to actually change my behaviours/reactions... but how? I don't know how to get past all the nastiness of what living with CPTSD encompasses.