Being treated poorly

[Rainagain]

This is not really a symptom I guess.

But I often feel I am treated poorly.

It's a general feeling and happens in lots of ways.

I find I often dont get the outcome I want or expect, but others seem to do ok.

Or maybe I do ok, but believe I would do better if I was.....less how I am.

Does anyone recognise this feeling? It's like I am of less worth than everyone else so dont deserve the same treatment.

Part of my isolating myself is because I cant get fair treatment from others, or it seems like that to me, most encounters seem to take something out of me.

[saylor]

Yes. I experience that, and it's lousy. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a magnet for poor treatment. I have a tendency to believe it's related to CPTSD. But, assuming that's true, is it because my CPTSD-caused behavioral oddities make me an obvious and easy target, OR am I abnormally sensitive to slights due to my CPTSD, OR is derealization (of sorts) making me falsely believe what's not really there (e.g., others are actually being treated just as poorly)? Maybe none of the above.
At any rate, this belief has definitely contributed to my slow retreat from society at large over the years

[Rainagain]

Sorry you have this too, it can trigger my depression even if it's mostly just imaginary.