**TW (Mention of severe illness, not mine) **
Or cancerous growth on the tongue?
Probably not, but possibly. The pain has flared up again on the side of my tongue and it looks a bit ulcerous. otoh I was thinking about FOO stuff again and thinking letters in my head, which would only be eligible as Non-Sender letters on here, so that could be causing a pain flare-up.
The 'OMG it's probably cancer' is not like the Cancer Scare they mention on OOTF used by narcs to manipulate others because I never talk about it except to my doctor or possibly once in group therapy. Thru grp T, I know I'm not the only one who reacts like this. My doc always reassures me that whatever 'it' is, it isn't cancer. I have an appointment in 24 hours anyway and can ask him for reassurance, before or after getting blood taken

Strangely enough, the fear that it
could be a cancerous growth on my tongue isn't freaking me out. I'm thinking: "I'll manage that." The way I recently said to my T and still think to myself: I'll manage w/o FOO money if they cut me out of their will. It won't be totally easy, there will be quite a bit of decision-making to do, but I'll manage.

Progress.
Unfortunately I'm not thinking "I'll manage that" about getting blood taken. Oh well, not everything heals at the same time and same rate.
I realised today too the possible link in my case between my immediate thought that eg. tongue pain might be cancer and my past / FOO: Although my parents are not in the least knowledgeable about medical matters but also eschew the medical field in general as being somehow beneath them:stars: they often made prognoses to me and my sibs, like: "you'll get diabetes if you put sugar in your tea". That was to B2 and he was a young adult, no longer living at home with parents. I don't want to poke around in my memories thinking up the prognoses they made to me, but that was the general vein. Now I've gone blank in my head which hasn't happened for a while. It means I'm onto something but that I also have to protect myself from something rn.