Well, I can't have experienced trauma because...

[voicelessagony2]

Thank you Indigo. It's nice to know this is "normal" even though it worries me... it's nice to know you understand. I hate that you had to experience this, but I'm glad we can be here to listen to each other.

[Indigochild]

Hey, no problem.    It is good to share and to know others feel the same..even though i wish know one had to go through the kind of stuff mentioned on this forum.
Im not sure how to get past this ...still struggling with this. 
Part of me wants to grieve and the other is so afraid so its like...a mixed blessing.
I feel very drunk when this happens...dont know if you can relate to that? Its like a switch has been pressed and my head has suddenly been intoxicated with alcohol as it would have been had i been drinking a lot.  Its kind of a floating feeling but I'm not off to the side of myself or behind myself and i can feel it happening at the time.