Not Alone: Reduced Visibility; One Step at a Time

[Tee]

 

[Snowdrop]

I've been here for a little while, and I've just been catching up with your journal. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you.

[Not Alone]

Thank you Tee and Snowdrop. 

My nerves are frayed. Current day stress, hooking into past stuff. 

[Bach]

Tea and a blanket and gentle hugs to you, notalone 

[Tee]

  I wish I could send one of our neighborhood friendly cat's your way to give you snuggles.  I know it's not the same but to give you a smile. Sending warm thoughts

[Snowdrop]

Thinking of you, Notalone.

[Not Alone]

Bach, Tee, Snowdrop; thank you for your continued care. It helps to not feel alone. I ended up taking a xanax last night; my anxiety was so high. I'm debating talking about the current-time issue with the person involved. Fearful of not being heard/being on the same page and it being more triggering. Frustrating.

[Not Alone]

I did end up talking to Person about current situation. Person is not in complete denial about situation, which was my fear. It is a big weight hanging over me. Nothing needs to be done immediately, so I guess I should try to put it on the shelf for awhile. That is hard for me to do.

[Snowdrop]

Well done for talking to Person. At least they weren't in complete denial.

I have a lockable box you can have, if it would help to put the situation in there? I wondered if it might save you from carrying it around with you.

[Not Alone]

Thank you, Snowdrop! I put the issue in the lockable box. I wasn't able to lock it yet  , but at least it is in the box.

[sanmagic7]

with you all the way, notalone.  love and hugs coming your way.

[Tee]

  sending you love and hugs

[Not Alone]

Hugs to you, San & Tee. 

I got some cleaning done today. Spent most of the day on Netflix. Feeling detached from everyone.

[Snowdrop]

If it's helpful, I will fetch you a cup of tea. I'll make it just the way you like it.

[sanmagic7]

you may feel detached, but you are not alone - we're here with you, for sure.

netflix has become, to my mind, something extremely important and helpful for some of us.  a distraction, a way to release feelings, something to learn from, a source of laughter, even pseudo-company of some sort - whatever we might need at the moment.  so glad you have that at your disposal, notalone.  sending love and hugs