Fertility treatment and flashbacks

[Lilypad]

Hi,

I am having fertility treatment now. My third egg freezing cycle. Today I am tearful and feeling really sad about my breakup from my narc ex a year ago. He discarded me in a really brutal way and it brought up a lot of unresolved grief from childhood emotional neglect amongst other things.

I decided to freeze my eggs after that as I am 38 and didn't want to lose my chance to have a child.

I was expecting to feel hormonal /tearful at this stage in the process as I did during my two previous cycles. So I have managed to maintain some perspective and not completely get lost in the flashback feelings. Went to yoga earlier, then had my lunch outside in my garden, and that helped.

Still sucks though. Nothing much to say really, just wanted to put it out there.

Two more weeks till I am done with this cycle...