Thank you schrödinger's cat and WiddifulFalling. Sorry if I spelt the names wrong and forgot anyone. I'm typing every thought that comes into my head, because for so long I've had all these private thoughts that never made sense, and now I just want to get them out because you all understand everything. I keep using the word 'just'. A teacher once told me using that that word minimizes the persons feelings, and in an effort to give myself the respect I always knew I deserved, I tried to stop using the word completely. If I ever did, it was with extreme reluctance! At the same time though, I do believe that what I say doesn't count, so I do sometimes use it. Aaaah...this is so hard.

Oh and WiddifulFalling, it make me feel so good that you were happy! Thank you for that, I needed it.
It's spot on about the word 'should'. I'm going to stop using that word as much as I can, not completely because the words needed in vocabulary. Oh no, I justify every little comment I make. I'll use humour when I notice those things in future.
Thank you all for saying I can ask for support. That means so much.
I took everyone's advise and did a yoga session for myself, and this sounds so stupid, but I stopped when my body said it'd had enough- I stopped the session before completing it. I very rarely let myself do that in the past, so I'm proud of myself. Stupid I know. Oh no, there goes my IC again telling me I'm being stupid for ever being proud of myself. When will this end!

Thank you everyone, I'm so grateful I found you all.
