Thanks for sharing your experience kizzie..
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What I did was let go of my hope that she will ever own up to her abuse, love me, apologize - really hard I will say but very freeing at the same time'.
Yes, I hear you on this. Well done on that piece of work to get further freedom.
For me I genuinely wasn't looking or needed apology but then I say that after getting one and some acknowledgement so if it had been different I may not be saying that.
I think there was a part of me that thought we could of had something, that I could get some semblance of care.. Some mother connection.
Her after math I believe would have happened post my experience sharing or not... She is soooo sooo angry its like I just stepped back to 1987 I feel amazed someone can maintain that level of anger for that length of time.. All projected onto every living breathing thing...
With the rest of the family not that I have much contact but I'm not prepared to stay completely silent now... I feel I can be in my adult and be in my power..
I don't need to give details to them but I do feel I need to show my voice....
I'm learning when people in general say something I'm not happy with my default setting is to say nothing... I'm learning I can ask questions or make statements non violently that help me stay in my power this is new for me and feels good..
I've blocked m on phone, what's app and Facebook.... Interesting times ahead I feel. Its my birthday next wk...