So... I haven't been here for a while.
Things have been relatively okay. My relationship is going very well, my wife and I have been together for 16 years now (our anniversary was in july) and we're continuously working on improving ourselves and our future together.
I'm also on the waiting list of several therapists and trying to go inpatient for indepth trauma therapy plus made two specialists appointments I should've made years ago, but better now than never.
Currently I'm working through a lot of trauma from my last stays in psychiatric hospitals, because the place where I was as a teen was... bad. Not overtly abusive, but incompetent.
And I feel like I have to make progress there because that trauma is the mayor thing keeping me from going inpatient. I live in a country with (almost) free healthcare, at worst there's a wait of a couple of months so I feel very priviledged but I feel like I'm currently not well equipped enough to handle being inpatient.
Hopefully I'll get there, though.
