Hi Deep Blue! I wanted to send you my support, too. I am fairly new around here, but I can understand the empty feeling of not knowing how long recovery will take... It's hard to know what you're aiming for when you've never been there before.
One thing I have seen since joining this community (and discovering CPTSD this last summer) is that people here are able to show compassion and empathy in ways that many can't because of the experiences they have gone through. There is a depth and beauty in the recovery, even though it is painfully hard. And I'm sure you know this, but I just wanted to remind you that we are here to stand with you. I am reminding myself of that as I am writing this
