#8 - starting over

[sanmagic7]

just talked to my ex, he finally got the x-ray done and has had his 3rd injection of steroids, so the pictures came out looking ok.  he's still coughing, has to go see the doc, see what she has to say.  maybe this is a relief for him - i hope so.

finished the book stuff, hopefully i can relax the rest of the day, get some rest. 

thanks, notalone, for the hug.  loved it!   

[Tee]

  glad the X-ray looks good.  Keep hanging on.  I'm hanging with you. Hope he continues to fight through this.

[Snowdrop]

That's good about the x-ray. Hang in there.

[Three Roses]

 

[Bach]

 

[sanmagic7]

thank you all for sticking with me - your ongoing support is priceless!  love and hugs to all of you

he couldn't talk much last nite cuz it causes him to cough, which is getting worse.  my heart is breaking for him having to go thru this.  he's trying to stay brave, but hearing him even say that tells me he's scared.  his meds got upped, too. 

thank heaven the book is finally done, so i only have to have him on my mind.  that's enough, i know.  taking the weekend off as best i can.  i am so very sad.

all those big hugs remind me of ems embracing me, gathering me in to help comfort and protect me.  just love them.  it's something i didn't get very much of in my life, and i find i still crave it.  i wonder if that's ever going to not be a thing for me.

[Blueberry]

 

[Not Alone]

 

[Tee]

  thinking of you my friend hoping things start to turn around for you, and H!  Hope he is feeling better soon!

[sanmagic7]

blueberry, absolutely wonderful, those hugs.  thanks!

notalone, thank you so much - i love all the hugs! 

tee, thank you for all your support while we're going thru this.  so appreciated.

will call him in a little bit.  his doc told him he's to stay at home for 2 more weeks.  i just keep leaking every so often (thanks, tee) and one foot in front of the other.

our neighbor asked my d the other day if we were still going to the farmers market, she said no, cuz the numbers started climbing again here and we wanted to stay safe.  he began talking to her about testing, whether the numbers are correct, if the tests work, and on and on.  i thought - i don't care about any of that - i know 3 people who died of it in may, 1 in june, 2 more family members are being treated for it, and now i'm wrestling with it thru my hub.  those numbers are enough for me to know this is something to be cautious about.  too many emotions to deal with.  getting triggered all the time.

[Tee]

Big understanding hug!  It is better safe than sorry for sure!  Try and get some rest San you need to e rested to stay healthy!!!

[sanmagic7]

thanks for the understanding, tee.  i appreciate it.  a lot.  i am resting as much as i can, too.  i know that's necessary to stay healthy.

[Tee]

 

[Elphanigh]

Sending lots of love your way, San  You are dealing with so much and I am glad you are being safe/cautious. Know the ems is always with you when you need her or want her. I can feel her warmth that surrounds you and those you care about.

[sanmagic7]

tee, thank you for the ongoing hugs and support.   

elphanigh, thanks for the validation on being cautious, and for your love and the reminder about ems.  she is here, helping me stay sane, as are all of you.  love and hugs back atcha!

my hub called, asked if we could not do our thing tonite, that he was very tired.  turns out that some well-meaning friend gave him an oximeter to measure the amount of oxygen he was taking in, and the reading was very low.  then, this friend and his wife began hounding him to see his doc right away, and was basically scaring the crapola out of him.  after several hours of this, the guy discovered the appliance wasn't working correctly.  all that fear for nothing!

he also had to deal w/ some drunk friend of his who's been calling him, and he didn't want to talk to the friend the past few days, so didn't call him back.  today, for some reason, he answered the friend's call, who promptly began asking him where's he's been and is he dead?!!!  so, that agitated my hub, and basically exhausted him, trying to tell the guy not to call when he's drunk, that he's sick, and doesn't want to answer every call.

i got so angry about these people, i can't sleep, so i thought i'd write it out here instead.  i swear, people can be so weird sometimes.  i was able to calm him down a bit, he was feeling better by the time we hung up, but man alive, the lack of respect is appalling!!!  grrrr!

just needed to dump this somewhere so i can maybe get some sleep.  if not, at least i feel better getting it out.  thanks for listening.