Being let down over and over for years and still today from people. I doubt I'll ever experience what having a true, good even best friend is like and what love truly is to have a person love you deeply more than that. My first exprenece with love wasn't something I thought it would be and now I doubt I'd ever find a guy who'd truly accept me, my past and things I can't do that you see from relationships today. On how society says you should to be to be normal and accepted. I don't want sex or a lot and even can't from being sexual abused possibly. My opinion is I think if you love someone it shouldn't be based on that alone or a lot. I guess my dream guy would be like a best friend, doing stuff as friends and can be intimate though not really caring for it either. I guess I'm a weird gal and not like every women out there. So my chances in finding a guy who would treat me with respect, as an equal and who is very kind, loving and would do those things dosen't exist in this world we live in. So I don't think love is possible for me. True you never know though I never met such a guy yet so I made my peace being single the rest of my life.
Plus I don't want a kids so that's always an issue too I think as well. I'm not sure what else to say about this so I'll just end my post here.
