Hello there,
I wanted to share how gaslighting and abuse can be so damaging to someone especially in the workplace. I was a victim of this as well as other things in the workplace. I won't get into too much of my story, but it has caused catastrophic damages. Almost 4 years later, I am still suffering and I wake up everyday wondering why this happened to me and suffering lifelong damages. As I reflect, I realized that my workplace thought I was an easy target because I was too nice.
I am a Medical Doctor and I took a Hippocratic Oath to Do No Harm and all my Superiors and supervisors did was intentional harm to me even when I asked for help and went to HR.
I should be on the front line helping in the COVID pandemic, especially when there is a shortage of doctors. Instead, I am waiting for the results of my federal lawsuit which I filed 3 years ago and got the right to sue 2 years ago. My employers even put libel in my file saying that I had significant learning deficits when I have never been diagnosed with any learning deficits in my life. My psychologist has never diagnosed me with any learning deficits either. This could prevent me from other jobs even.
My case is currently with a federal judge, and there are many layers to my case that I won't get into. These people that did this to me not only ruined my career but they ruined my name and life intentionally with no just cause.
I have had a lot of time to reflect and over 3.5 years of trauma therapy has put it into perspective. I am a type of person that turns my pain into power and my wounds into wisdom.
The best advice that I can give if you ever feel powerless or trapped in a situation is always stand up for yourself. Whether you're 0 to 100, adult bullying and abuse are just like kids on the playground that you have to stand up to. It's not okay for someone to abuse anyone. Abusers love to play the victim and gaslight and don't let them get away with this. Set boundaries with them and stand up for yourself and pursue the legal way if you have to like I had. These people left me no choice but to sue them.
What bothered me the most is that they ruined my name intentionally and I'm someone that had pristine evaluations and a wonderful reputation. There are days where I regret being too nice and I was a victim of narcissistic abuse and people in positions of extreme power over me and they took it to their advantage.
From now on I will no longer feel powerless. I have a voice and all of you do too. I will make sure what happened to me won't happen to another innocent person, and I pray laws are changed because of my case.
CPTSD and PTSD are not caused by yourself, they are caused by the circumstances and all of us are innocent victims of it. Abusers love to gaslight and say victims are crazy, but the only people that are crazy are abusers. Abuse is not okay and I will always stand up against it whether it's sexual. physical, or emotional. The best way to not get revictimized is to set boundaries and stand up to your abusers, and do it legally like I did if you have to.
All of my best to all of you. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.