Sligeanach's journal

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sligeanach

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Sligeanach's journal
« on: September 06, 2020, 05:26:38 PM »
Posting this so I can have posted something, there's only so long one can stare at an empty text box.

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saylor

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« Reply #1 on: September 06, 2020, 06:01:33 PM »
The words will know when (if) they’re ready to flow. There’s no timeline on theses things, and we'll be here if you need us
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« Reply #2 on: September 06, 2020, 06:40:16 PM »
 :yeahthat: No pressure Sligeanach!

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notalone

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« Reply #3 on: September 06, 2020, 10:55:32 PM »
Toe in the water. Way to go.  :thumbup:

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sligeanach

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« Reply #4 on: September 10, 2020, 02:52:19 PM »
Thank you all. That means so much more to me than I realized it would.

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« Reply #5 on: September 11, 2020, 01:52:33 AM »
It takes a lot of courage. You did great :cheer:

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Hope67

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« Reply #6 on: September 23, 2020, 10:06:33 AM »
Hi Sligeanach,
I agree, it takes a lot of courage. 
Hope  :)

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Three Roses

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« Reply #7 on: September 23, 2020, 03:48:54 PM »
It was difficult for me to get started here, too. I thought, what could I possibly have to say that's of any importance?

Finally, I started. It gets easier. And it's quite helpful to be validated and supported, as well as accepted into a group of people whole heartedly without feeling like you're an imposter or have to hide away all the ugly bits for the sake of fitting in.

It's my hope you will have the same experience here.
 :heythere:

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sligeanach

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« Reply #8 on: September 25, 2020, 05:23:01 AM »
Thank you kind friends.

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sligeanach

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« Reply #9 on: September 25, 2020, 05:26:44 AM »
I think I'll just vent a little, if that's ok. I don't understand why I can't recover from any mistake. As soon as I've made some careless error, I just fall apart. I lose all my confidence and competence. Suddenly I'm useless, helpless, and just keep making it worse. It's saddening and frustrating.

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Three Roses

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« Reply #10 on: September 25, 2020, 05:35:28 AM »
For many of us, myself included, mistakes were an invitation to be abused emotionally, physically, and/or sexually. Mistakes caused us to be laughed at, bullied and rejected.

Mistakes can prompt a return to that same emotional state we experienced when we were helpless. It's possible you are experiencing an EF or emotional flashback. Here's something to read by Pete Walker, someone who is frequently referenced here - http://pete-walker.com/flashbackManagement.htm

Hope this helps. You're not alone, I hate making mistakes.
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« Reply #11 on: September 29, 2020, 07:16:27 PM »
I understand completely what you mean, and Three Roses said it pretty well.  I also suffer from this.  You're not alone.

Offering a supportive hug if that's okay.  If not, it's okay to to not accept it.

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« Reply #12 on: October 11, 2020, 08:46:22 PM »
Thank you Three Roses for sharing the link to Pete Walker. It's taken many days for me to bring myself to read it, and I suspect it will take many days for me to be ready to work with the tools he offers. Thank you Gravity for the kindness of your offer and the compassionate way you respected boundaries and vulnerabilities.