Sad:(

[Mius]

I started a work book Seeking Safety with my therapist, on advice of my Shrink. I was not prepared for the sadness.  I'm a 40 year old white male and I dont think Ive ever cried so much in my life. We are trying to do the first section and I have to stop it, it has been 3 freeken weeks!!! lol My wife teases me non stop (in a fun way).
My alert ness is way up as well. I see her everywhere. and Dreams sooooo many dreams.

Everything I build for the last 30 years is coming down and it's scary as ...(well you know)

Thanks for listening.

[Blueberry]

Hello Mius,
Idk if we've met before, so hi and welcome to the forum 

We're not really meant to give advice on here but a voice in me is repeating "Go slow, go slow!" Three weeks is a very short time in the framework of recovery from trauma. It's OK to take your time. If you're crying that much, then there is a lot going on internally. And as you say your alertness is way up and you're having lots of dreams. Just more evidence that there's a lot going on emotionally for you. Pauses in recovery to reground are par for the course.

[Mius]

Thank you...

It is so true, we have still slowed right down for this to process. I just need to vent sometimes where I know someone can hear.