Hi everyone,
With the New Year here and approaching, I’ve been spending time reflecting on the dumpster fire that was 2020. Not only are we dealing with one of the most severe pandemics in 100 years, I was certainly faced with many personal challenges as well.
With all the negative, I have been able to find silver linings and fortunately that is with my mental health and my healing journey. January started with me being introduced to the idea that I have PTSD (more appropriately cPTSD) from my T. This was a very hard pill for me to swallow and took time to come around to. After all my brother in law had PTSD, he was blown up by an IED. Though I’ve had my share of traumatic experiences they’ve never been on that caliber. Furthermore, I grew up in a loving house where I had a roof over my head, three square meals a day and never left wanting. It took me a while to acknowledge emotional neglect had plagued my childhood.
Fast forward to the spring I hit one of my more low points in my life. My relationship with my wife was on the rocks and I felt completely and utterly alone. Coincidentally, this was the same time I found this forum. I wanted to thank you all for being in my life. You’ve helped me grow and take positive steps in my journey of healing. Obviously, I have a long road to go. But I finally feel like something is right with my mental health journey and that I have found the right diagnosis. I finally feel like I’m taking positive steps towards healing and accepting myself for who I am.
Thank you for the community and guidance. I sincerely hope to all of you that 2021 treats you better. That you continue on your healing journey and make positive strides. That you and whoever you consider your loved ones remain healthy.
Happy New Year!
Cheers!
Buddy
