I really need someone to talk to

[Larry]

anyone here ?   having a hard time tonight.   i'm at home,   i really need a drink but don't have anything here.   i need something to calm down,  really need a friend

[Armee]

 

[Larry]

thank you armee,  i'm feeling better this morning, 

[blue_sky]

Sorry I saw this just now. Hope you are feeling better Larry.

[Larry]

thank you blue sky,  i had a few bad days,  but feeling better.  thank you for being here 

[Larry]

i hate christmas,   i hate most holidays,   i try so hard to act normal    i just want to be like everyone else     i want to have friends and family      i want to feel accepted     i try so hard,  what do i have to do to be like everyone else    i called the hotline,   they tried,   but i just do not know how to continue

[Armee]

Unlike the past you have a network of support now. 

[Larry]

  thank you...   I really need to control alcohol,  seems like i only get that way is when i over drink

[storyworld]

Larry, how are you feeling today?

[Larry]

Hi storyworld,  I haven't logged on ina  few weeks,   thank you for checking on me.  I am doing ok

[blue_sky]

Glad to hear you doing ok

[Larry]

thaank you bluesky !    still having some good and bad days,  but i feel ok,  really trying to focus on my health. 

[Larry]

i am trying to stay positive,  but i don't know how much more i can take.   i feel like i have pushed everyone away.   i feel isolated and alone,   it is so hard watching people enjoy time with friends and family,   i just want to feel normal.   i am loosing hope

[Armee]

 

Maybe you needed to push people away?

Anyway, we are here cheering you on thru the rough days and the better days. 

[NarcKiddo]

I totally agree with Armee.

I'd also suggest that you maybe try not to worry too much about feeling "normal". I often say that to my therapist, about myself. She says that "normal" is very subjective. Our trauma reactions are totally normal based on what we have been through. Of course we do not want to keep having these reactions, especially if they are no longer necessary because our circumstances have changed. So of course we need to try to heal - but please don't beat yourself up for not doing/thinking/being like everyone else. That really would not be "normal" in your circumstances.