Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Larry]

I am so sorry,  i really over reacted,   i am ok,  i just get lost sometimes.     i don't want people to think i am crazy,   i really try to hold it together.      just sometimes...   sometimes i mess up.  sometimes i loose it,     i really am trying to not let that happen.    i know drinking makes things worse,   it helps until it doesn't,   i don't know what to do.....

[Armee]

It's OK. We've all been in those moments here. It is really really overwhelming when you are in them and I am glad you post when you feel like that. Having a place to turn is helpful. I used to have that feeling of not knowing what to do so badly it would just sink me.

You are doing the most important work of learning these terrible feelings aren't permanent. They come and go and we can ride out the worst of it until it settles. Eventually those huge waves become smaller and they don't knock you under as often or as badly.

You know what to do. A part of you doesn't know what to do, but another part knows. You come back here when you feel solid and clear, and read your posts, see your pattern. Then pick up the phone and get help when you are ready to disrupt this pattern and heal. It's OK that you aren't ready yet. 

[sanmagic7]

 

i agree w/ everything armee said.  you have the knowledge, which is the first step. next is to put it into action when you are ready.  love and hugs

[Larry]

thank you armee and san magic,    i really appreciate everyone here.
i have been doing good the last few days.     i know there are ups and downs,   maybe i can find a way to make them less extreme.   
i had 2 drinks today,   only 2.   i feel pretty good about that.    tomorrow is a new day   

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
You're right, tomorrow is a new day, and I very much hope that your day is a nice one, and that there's lots of sunshine and some good moments within it.   

I'm glad you've been feeling good the last few days, and that you're feeling pretty good about only 2 drinks. 

Wishing you the best for today.

Hope 

[Larry]

i have had a rough  week,  my wife asked me to leave for a while.   I stayed in a hotel for 3 nights.   I did not drink much,  just tried to stay present.    I am home today.  I think things will work out.  only time will tell.   

[rainydiary]

Larry, I am sorry to hear about the difficult week. 

[Larry]

things were ok today,   then somehow depression hits out of nowhere.    i really don't understand it.     maybe tomorrow will be better.    I am at home,   but i really want to have at least 1 or 2 more drinks,     i really don't know what else to do. 

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

I hope things get better for you and get a chance to speak with the therapist.

Sending you 

dolly

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
Sending you some sunshine, and hoping you're ok 

Hope 

[Larry]

I'm sorry i haven't been on here in a while.   I went through a really bad time, I did not think  i was going to make it home last monday.   I was ready to give up.    but this last week things have been much better.   I am trying to stay positive.   I appreciate all of you.   

[sanmagic7]

 

[paul72]

hi Larry!
Thanks for saying hi, it's good to hear from you.
I'm sorry that you've been struggling. I hope the week continues to get better for you.
We are here for you. 

[Armee]

 

I'm sorry you were struggling so much. I'm glad you've made it to this week. Keep making it one more day at a time. I'm glad you are here.

[rainydiary]

Hi Larry, thanks for sharing your update.