Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Armee]

 

Way to go Larry! Multiple Day 1s are important too! It'd be awesome to make it to another AA meeting and get that support, not just for drinking but for yourself too.

[Larry]

thank you armee !

my wife went to the doctor today,  she has had abdominal pain for 2 weeks,  they sent her to the hospital, they did a ct scan,  and found advanced liver cirrhosis.   her liver is shutting down,  and going to need a liver transplant.   going to have to take her to the mainland tonight.  the hospital on our island is not very big.   i feel so helpless .   i don't want her to die.  she is all i have

[Armee]

Oh Larry. I am so so so sorry. I'll be sending tons of love and luck your way. It's not fair.

[sanmagic7]

 

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

I'm sorry, that must be so difficult. 

Sending you support,
dolly

[Larry]

thank you san and dolly.   it has been a hard few days.   my wife is home,  still in some pain.  i am on day 5,  trying not to drink,  not sure how else i am going to cope with everyhting.   i am going to try to go to a meeting tomorrow,  and i have an appointment with my
 psychiatrist in a few weeks,  i might try meds,  not sure yet.  i feel like maybe it's too late,  like maybe i should just drink,  but i know that isn't the answer.  i'm just really afraid of loosing my wife

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
I am so sorry to hear your recent news about your wife's health.  Sending you both support and strength at this time 
Hope 

[Larry]

thank you hope...
  i went to a meeting this morning,  it was really nice way to start the day. 

[Larry]

i can't even try to have fun with friends,  i don't know what happened,  but i had to leave early,  i just couldn't take it and wanted to go home.  i just want to cry.   i should be home anyway,   i need to spend more time with my wife

[Larry]

today was better,   finally got the meds my wife needs.   trying to stay hopeful.   i missed my last session,  next one is not until the 28th.   
i really want to go to some aa meetings next week,   i really enjoy the support i have been getting there.  today is day 7,  tomorrow will be day 8 without a drink,  feels good

[Armee]

I am so so happy you are getting good support and feel like it's helpful to go, and that you have the meds your wife needs right now.

Congrats on day 8! 

[Larry]

thank you armee,

yesterday,  one of my dogs died,  my wife was so attached to him,  he was older,  but it was unexpected,  he had heart failure.   it is going to take some time for both of us.   
A lot of things happend last week,  not sure i can handle much more.

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
My sincere condolences to you and your wife regarding your dog's death.   
Hope 

[Larry]

thank you hope,
yesterday was day 9,  and i messed it all up.  i drank last night.  drank too much.  i'm really dissappointed with myself this morning.  i don't want to drink anymore,  but i don't know what else to do

[Armee]

You made it 9 days! Next time getting to 10,11, 15 will be that much easier. Do you have a sponsor yet that you can call when you need to do something but don't know what to do?

I'm so sorry for the loss of your dog. That's so difficult especially now.