Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Larry]

I do have a sponsor,  i should have called him,  i thought i was just going to have 1 or 2, 
 today was day 1 and i made it,  i really want to focus on my health.   

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. It's really hard when a pet dies. I was devastated when my cat died, and took it really, really hard.

Maybe it will take some time to realize that you do have other options like calling your sponsor, or going to a meeting when you feel like you don't know what else to do, but they are there. 

Sending you support,
dolly

[Larry]

thank you dolly 

[Larry]

just finished doing some gaardening ,  and re planted a few house plants.  I am going to try to be productive today.  might go to the gym later

[Larry]

not sure what happened,   i just want to hide from everyone,  need to be alone for a while,  i just want to feel accepted,  why is it so hard

[Larry]

not sure what happened yesterday,  feeling a little better this mornining,  but still don't want to be around anyone.  maybe it's the holidays aproaching.  i already know i am going to drink later today.  not even going to try to fight it.  i just want to get numb

[Armee]

 

Maybe as you go through your day and find some activities that ground you you might remember to call your sponsor for help, so you don't have to get through the day alone.

You are going through so much, Larry.

[Larry]

thank you armee,   i should have done that,  having a sponsor is still new to me.   tomorrow is a holiday i do not want to deal with.   i just want to forget,   i don't want to do this anymore,    i want to drink until i do not wake up

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
I know you're not at all looking forward to tomorrow - but I hope that you are ok, and wanted you to know that I'm sending you some sunshine   
Also a hug, if that's ok 
Hope 

[Larry]

thank you hope,
  today was ok,  worked this morning,  i tried to think of it as any other day.   i didn't drink today.  my next session is tuesday,  i missed my last session,  i need to have them more often.  seeing the psych doctor in 3 weeks,  a little nervous about that one.  she doesn't know about the baker act incident,  not sure if i should tell her.  i just want to get through the end of the year

[Larry]

had a nice day today,  worked all day and had a nice dinner with my wife.  no plans for tomorrow yet,  might try to go to a meeting in the morning

[Larry]

spent some time with a friend today,  felt really nice.   i had a lot of friends before i moved here,   i feel so alone here,  i just want to feel accepted.   i really try to be good to myself,  but sometimes i want to give up.   it is so exhausting

[Larry]

I have a session today,  might go to the gym after.  Things have been ok.  I haven't been to a meeting in a while.  I really would like to go more often

[Larry]

My session went well,  I need to work on eating and taking care of myself.  I am trying to make a meal plan with my wife.  Going to do some work this afternoon and hopefully make it to the gym

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
I'm glad to hear that your session went well.  I hope that your meal plan with your wife goes well.  Hope you make it to the gym, if you still feel like it later.
Hope