Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

Congrats on joining the gym - it should help focus your energy and at the same time you get to focus on you and what makes you feel good. 

dolly

[Larry]

thank you Dolly !

Monday...   feeling good this morning.  it has been easier to get out of bed !  i am starting to enjoy most things again.  still get a little anxiety around people i don't now.  but i feel like i am doing better at recognising it and controlling it.  no work today,  might go for a bike ride !

[rainydiary]

Larry, I hope you have an easeful Monday. 

[Larry]

thank you rainy ! 

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
I don't know if you went out for that bike ride you mentioned, but whatever you did, I hope you enjoyed it.  I read that you have joined a gym, and that you enjoyed your first session there, that is so great.  I'm glad.   
Hope 

[owl25]

I hope you had a nice bike ride

[Larry]

thank you all for the support !  i did'nt get that bike ride.  i did get a lot done at home.  feeling sore from the gym.  i had 3 drinks today.  i have been doing so much better at not over drinking !  i am working tomorrow.  just trying to stay positive.  i really want to try to figure out my sleeping ,  or lack of,  but i can't  worry about it too much,  just feels good to have less anxiety and not be so depressed !

[rainydiary]

Larry, it sounds like you are setting intentions for yourself and finding ways to reach toward those intentions.  I think it is ok if things don't go exactly as you hope as I think they will go in the way that works for you.  Thanks for keeping us updated. 

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

That sounds great! Going for a walk everyday during lockdown and starting to lift weights really helped me change my focus at different times. Hope it helps you that way too. Glad the anxiety is better as well. Like rainy said, you're learning great tools right now for dealing with anything that might come up.

dolly

[Larry]

you are both amazing and i am so glad you are here !  i am working today,  might go for a bike ride after work.  i feel like i can go to happy hour and only have 3 drinks.  i am ok with that.  i just don't want to have 8 ,   i think i am capable of doing that now.  next session is 11 days.  T wants to start trama work,  whatever that means.  but it does sound painful.  i have to be careful not to build anxiety or over drink as it gets closer. 

[rainydiary]

Larry, it's cool how much you are noticing.  It's hard for me to not get anxiety about what might happen, so I can relate to that future appointment being in your mind. 

[Armee]

Hey Larry,

I'll be rooting for you to stop at 3!

It's ok to ask her what she means by starting trauma work.

It's also ok to ask to go really slow.

It's also important to share what is happening with you because they can't read our minds or bodies.

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

Thanks for being here as well and sharing with us  Agree with rainy and Armee, you're in the driver's seat with the T and it's ok to have questions and be anxious about starting to work on this. Those are your parts protecting you, just let them know that you're listening and that you want to help them do the best for you. You can always put the feelings back into the box when they get too much. No one here is expecting anything from you.

Enjoy the bike ride!

dolly

[Larry]

stayed out late last night,  and gor really drunk,  i didn't drive.  the wife is not happy with me.  i'm not happy with me either right now.  trying to put it behind me,  not going to drink today.  work was ok,  just got home.  doing some volunteer work at the theater this evening.   sesssion 3 is the 19th. 
seems so far away, 

[rainydiary]

There are definitely ups and downs as we walk this path.  Best wishes working through this time.