i wanted to make this year different. i wanted to enjoy christmas like everyone else. i was doing so good until today,
My F physically abused me for several years, then abandoned me , the last time i saw him was christmas day when i was almost 7. i never saw him again, he remarried, and had 2 more kids. but he never gave a * about me. i don't think he has any idea what that did to me. maybe it is a good thing , he might have killed me,. the abuse was very severe, i was put i the hospital severla times, i am so lucky to still be here. some days i feel like i am lucky to be here, some days i am living in *. i tried so hard this year to enjoy the holidays, i just want it to be over.