Just a bit of an update. I've further lowered my dose of the new SSRI I'm taking (Lexapro) and weaned off the benzo I was on for a few weeks (clonazepam) and still no return of that horrible anxiety. So for whatever reason (I'm personally thinking aging) after being on it for about 6 years I became quite sensitive to it. We were upping the dose which seems a natural response to my anxiety when we should have been lowering it. A bit counterintuitive but it worked thankfully.
Whatever, I'm just glad to be on the other side of them. It was similar to being flattened by depression, couldn't get out of bed, didn't eat, insomnia.... but it was anxiety. I've had some bad bouts of depression where all of that happened but never anxiety that caused me to become non-functional basically.
Oddly enough after what I just went through and as I mentioned elsewhere on the forum, I have decided to ask my GP if she will refer me to a clinic here to do a trial micro dose of Ketamine to see if I am okay to go ahead with ketamine assisted psychotherapy. I was reading about what it can do for people with treatment resistant depression, anxiety, PTSD and chronic pain and it has some legs (research re its efficacy).
I have definitely made progress since finding out I have CPTSD but want to see if I can build resilience and maybe even find the joy, peace and enjoyment that often eludes me.
Anyway, I'll post as I go.