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[sanmagic7]

thanks for all the hugs, CF.  yep, the higher power thing is best, in my mind, when one can define it for themself.  it made all the difference for me. 

thanks for the cheer and hug, armee.  i'm gonna need that faith, cuz i'm know i'm very stressed about circumstances right now.   

thanks, blueberry.  i'll get to you when i can, but know that i think about you a lot.  i just wish 'calmer' could last a while longer. 

well, my D has to go to a specialist about her spine, and she's freaking out, and i feel so bad for her cuz she's so scared.  i know i'm very stressed cuz i dreamt about visiting mexico, my go-to dream when i'm stressed.  it's taking everything i have to keep the stress bottled up as much as possible - i don't want to share it w/ my D in words, altho she knows this stuff w/ her affects me, too.  just trying to make it to tomorrow.

[rainydiary]

Thinking of you San. 

[Kizzie]

Thinking of you too San and thanking you for doing the same for me.   

[sanmagic7]

thanks, rainy.  always appreciated. 

thanks, kizzie, and back atcha.  hang tough, ok?  hangin' right beside you. 

i've only just realized 2 days ago how stressed i am.  first a dream about going to mexico, then, yesterday the realization that the headaches i've been having for the past 2 weeks are due to stress.  we have a hand-held massage tool, and i haven't used it for a while, but put it to the base of my neck yesterday, all around that area, and i could feel it work its magic.  i felt odd, strange, a little light-headed, a little woozy from what i believe were the toxins released as those muscles were manipulated.  never felt it before, but i'm starting again today to have that be a regular part of my day. 

it hurts so much to see my D scared about what's going to happen with her neck now.  she's referred to a spine clinic but has to wait till next week to find out when they'll take her. 

one bright spot is that the u.s. open begins tomorrow.  Vamos!!!

[Hope67]

Hi SanMagic,
I am glad that you got some nice relief through using that neck massage tool, it sounds nice.  Having that as a regular part of your day sounds lovely. 

I am sorry to hear that your D is scared about what's going to happen to her neck, and I really hope that the spine clinic referral will be helpful and that they'll take her on for support and treatment.  I will keep my fingers crossed for her.

I hope you enjoy watching the U.S. Open. 



Hope 

[Kizzie]

Sending positive thoughts for your daughter and her appointment this week.   

[Armee]

 

Medical stuff is stressful.

[sanmagic7]

thank you, hope, for your well wishes.  you brought a smile to my face this morning.

thanks, kizzie - much appreciated.

you're so right about that, armee.  thanks for that big hug.  loved it.

just hanging out and hanging on right now.  made it to today so i'm counting it as a win.

[Larry]

 

[sanmagic7]

  back atcha, larry.   

felt pretty good today, less brain fog, more energy.  dang, i wish this would just keep going.  fingers crossed!

[Bach]

I'm glad you're feeling good today, san!  It's encouraging to be able to recognise that when it comes along.  I hope you have a wonderful day 

[Kizzie]

Yes San, enjoy every single lovely moment you have this good day and tuck it away for those days when things are not so good.   

[CactusFlower]

yay for good days! HUGS

[Kizzie]

 

[sanmagic7]

thank you bach for your support  it really is good to be able to recognize it - seems like it's been so long without.

hey, kizzie, i hear you and i get it.  i did enjoy those days (unfortunately, disturbance in my force caught me yesterday) and what you said was a great reminder to do so. thanks   

CF,  definitely a YAY! got lots of stuff done which felt really good, too.  thanks.

had 3 good days, some of which i think also had to do w/ the fact that the heat lifted for 2 of them.  even tho we have a/c, fans, and are cool enough, this heat has rattled our bones.  too many switches in routines, worrying about my garden, trying to find the right comfort level, etc., i felt disturbed last nite, my anxiety ramped up, and i just felt uneasy and out of sorts.

also found out that at this specific spine clinic, they won't be able to even evaluate her for another 2 mos.  the waiting is a killer - it's so difficult to know my D is scared in the first place, but to be put on hold like that only increases the intensity.  so, dealing w/ that, too. 

but for 3 days i was active, busy, accomplished a lot of things - was able to transplant all the babies, which are doing fine, and i have a tomato actually growing!  that does my heart good.  laundry got done, sheets changed, vacuuming, - just bunches of stuff i felt really good about accomplishing.  so far today i feel ok, too.  this is delightful!  as the heat rises, tho, it turns things south for me.  will ride it out, but not enjoying it.