i agree w/ everything you've said about the medical profession, kizzie. i was given risperdone when the shrink thought my bipolar (my diagnosis at the time) was worsening on my reg. meds. i was in mexico at the time and too sick to put up a decent argument in spanish. i am on meds now, but for anxiety and to help me sleep (xanax and trazadone) and they're working just fine for what they've been prescribed. trazadone is an old school anti-depressant w/ sedative effects and i'm on a small dose. but i had to fight for it cuz the other meds which were first prescribed for me did not work at all. sometimes it's a crapshoot.
i'm so glad you have a GP who is working WITH you on all this. i also agree w/ armee that there is often an elitist attitude around docs and shrinks. they may have all the book learning and can quote references by the 100's, but they don't care too much about the individual unless the symptoms are within the bell curve. the bell curve covers about 80% of clients, but that leaves 10% on either side who don't fit w/in the parameters. unfortunately, that 20% is too often ignored or dismissed.
reminds me again of the story of the black swans. no one believed in them back in the day, believed all swans were white, and dismissed stories about them w/o looking at the possibility of their existence. one day an explorer discovered them in australia and brought 2 back to his homeland for proof. now a 'black swan' is a term for something unpredicted or unpredictable. i believe we are black swans, in that we may be unlike what others want to believe about us, but we are so very beautiful just the way we are.
good luck w/ your continuing journey, kizzie. i sure do hope you find relief. love and a hug filled w/ stand your ground.
