Thank you for the update, Kizzie.
I've been feeling a lot of concern over you and your situation. What GREAT news that you've concluded your SSRI treatments. I hope the Gabapentin does its job and gets your anxiety under control. My wife uses Gabapentin with great success to keep her anxiety, and her fibromyalgia, and her Ehlers Danlos Syndrome under control. With Gabapentin, she can sleep well at night and relax during the day. I've often wondered if I should ask my doctor for a prescription of it also. I've never taken one, so I don't know how it works. But it sure seems to help Coco. (She's Gramma Coco and I'm Papa Coco).
My fingers are crossed that the Gabapentin is as good for you as it is for Coco.
I'm so sorry they overdosed you on Ketamine. I mean, I'm real sorry. I had hopes that your first experience would be as magical as mine was. I now hope that you're able to go into your next, reduced dose, with a lot more peace and success.
They did start me off on a reduced dose for the purpose of testing how I responded to it. But I had already brought my anxiety down by going 100% No Contact with the news prior to the treatment.
On a personal note: I've never taken Gabapentin, but I think I told you that I've reduced my anxiety by going Full No Contact with news. The news is an EF trigger for me. Since March, the only news I've been willing to watch or read was the local reports on the wildfires threatening my sons' homes. Almost every news story is an EF trigger for me. Having been bullied nearly to death, and knowing that my beautiful little sister WAS bullied to death, I can't even LOOK at the bullying that's being allowed to flourish in today's world without going into major EF anxiety. So, I don't look. Avoidance is my strategy for now. I live with my head in the sand and it's working for me. But, no kidding, just reading headlines about how so many politicians and corporate scum keep getting away with being sick, sociopathic, mass bullies, can send me into an EF tailspin that lasts for several sleepless nights and anxiety-ridden days. So, NO contact of any kind with world news is the only way I can keep my anxiety in check.
I sincerely hope you are able to quickly find whatever strategy works for you.
Big hug.
