Samnagic7, That was so interesting to read!
Do you think that you will get yourself tested for Adrenal Fatigue?
Its so validating to know that all of the symptoms you listed, i have nearly all of them.
A lot of us run away from our narcs.
And did you know that re locating and doing it also with out help...or going to a different country - new language etc. is super stressful on the adrenals?
Re locating is one of lifes major stressors.
I hope you dont mind...but here is a link on Adrenal fatigue, the symptoms. Its in-depth and mentions re location (which is how i know this).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iERqD2XrUkI really want to go to a healer too.
Im not sure the release of trauma from doing therapy is enough- ive heard that its not always enough and that focusing on the body as well as the mind is most helpful.
Thank you for sharing your experience of what you tried, how it was for you, and weather or not it worked.
It sounds to me, that recognising the physical signs of stress is being more in tune with your body and not as much in your mind. I know with disassociation, you just dont feel bodily sensations and you do not feel emotions in your body as they are happening, you are too much up in your head ignoring your body that is attached. At least that is my experience.
i've looked a lot into vitamin therapy, and am using that now, as well as eating better, stopped smoking and drinking.Good for you, that is so great! I will be there one day, when I'm ready.
i
do believe that part of my job is to give my body the best possible foundation and accompanying help so that it can get on with the business of healing itself. Umm, yes, i like that. That makes a lot of sense. How can the body properly heal itself if you are giving it chemicals and harmful things.
i found the the physical pain, the ibs symptoms (if it is that)..the stomach issues, whatever you want to call it...it is validation to me that something is wrong...that I'm not doing ok, that the stress has gotten too much.
I want to fix it. I want to feel better and more free in my body. Relaxed.
Another part of me needs my body to reach its limit, the most it can handle. If i crash, then i know i have to fix it. For now, whilst i want to be better, its validating my stress to me.
I dont get it, because, like if i have an injury, i feel i can protect myself - from the world.
Its like i have an injured sore body, and its injured inside too.
Its like my inner child is here with me. And i need to protect her. I know i need to connect with there properly on a consistent basis, then maybe i wouldnt rely on this hurt to tell me whats going on.
It could be an aching to be looked after. Maybe because i was ignored when i was ill. Acnowlefged if they found out...(i learned never to tell) but then left to my own devices.
I dont know what this part of me is, or why its there.
Maybe part of me is still in denial, whilst the other wants the validation and has received it due to noticing pain etc in my body. Maybe i just want someone to notice and to help me.
Im not talking about adrenal crashes which i already have.
i mean, when my body stops working all together, or i crash big time.
maybe thats already happened. last time it happened, i knew it was serious and would only increase with each crash.
Being where i am, i havent been able to crash. i have been slowly crashing but maybe my body etc is still highly stressed.
Im wondering what they body does when there is no break from stress.
how can it keep going? maybe that is why the ibs like symptoms are increasing.
Anybody have any ideas what i mean?
I wish you lots of luck with your recovery journey Sanmagic7