Not Alone on a New Path (2023-?)

[Armee]

 

Remember it is likely confusing to a lot of people.

[Not Alone]

I was so overwhelmed and anxious this morning that it was just too much. I took a couple of meds and slept for a few hours. I had my therapy session. I didn't really get anything done. Watching a movie with daughter now.

[rainydiary]

I am thinking of you Not Alone.  You are making a huge change with your work in addition to the other changes in your life this year. 

[Armee]

Taking a nice break with your daughter sounds like the perfect thing to do in the face of overwhelm. Self doubt sucks and it's scary and just sucky to feel unqualified for a job. I don't doubt you though. And neither do the people who hired you, knowing your skill set. 

[Not Alone]

Thanks. 

I got a lot done today with help from my daughters. I had moments of feeling overwhelmed, but overall I did okay.

[Armee]

 

[rainydiary]

I'm glad your daughters helped out and that it was supportive. 

[Not Alone]

I've been slowly unpacking the boxes that I packed when I thought that I was moving. I came across the card my H gave to me on our first anniversary.

All too much: grieving divorce, getting prepared for new job, getting house and finances in order. I'm okay right now, but it all really weighs on me. Sometimes the overwhelm feels unbearable.

[Armee]

It really is too much, and I am so sorry you have to wade through all this change and grief and trauma. 

[sanmagic7]

i agree, it feels like too much because it is too much.  so so much.  we're here, by your side, we've got you if you trip or stumble.  hang tough, ok?  love and hugs

[rainydiary]

You have carried so much.

[Not Alone]

Thank you Armee, San, & Rainy. It helps to have your affirmation about how big all this is.

I mostly finished the family room. After H left, it was in chaos, with stuff removed from shelves that he took and my boxes that I had packed. The furniture that was here was not in any order. When I look back at the chaos that the room was in and then look at what I've done, I feel proud of myself. I didn't think that I would get it done until fall. There is a little bit left to do, but overall it looks good.

[sanmagic7]

sending love and a hug filled w/ pride for what you've accomplished!

[CactusFlower]

Congrats on the organization, NotAlone. Sometimes cleaning up our physical space can feel freeing.

[Not Alone]

Thank you San & Cactus Flower. It does help to have that space put together.

Worked on my new position at work today. I felt calmer and not panicked. My coworker was really encouraging about the technology; that she would help and that I could take it slowly.