Healing journal (tw) Angering / strong emotions

StartingHealing · November 04, 2024, 06:12:08 PM

Nov 4 2024
something has come to the fore, which is thusly: I want to stay in this realm for as long as I can. The second part is that while the "job" current or future is a means to pay the obligations, I'm not really seeing a 'mission' there. Like what is a over-arching 'thing' that I should be working towards? On? or Maybe I'm not explaining it well. Another splinter in the mind to work on.

Wishing all here all the best.

StartingHealing · November 07, 2024, 10:29:49 PM

11-7-2024

I'm really really concerned about society at the moment. Like what is going on with some people? I knew that there was a certain cohort of people in the USA that have 'issues' but holy crap you know? What is so freaking triggering? Man, with what I've been hearing.. I'm starting to get concerned about my personal safety. I'm really seriously considering of acquiring something that perhaps isn't lethal but something.

Armee · November 08, 2024, 03:55:23 AM

Gummy bear gun? Distract them?

I hear you. It is concerning and disturbing and shocking

Chart · November 08, 2024, 07:02:15 AM

Gummy bear gun!?! Does that exist? Where can I get one?

StartingHealing · November 08, 2024, 05:26:56 PM

Armee,
If you find a link or some lead on something that throws gummy bears (which kind tho? The normal ones or the 'special' kind?) let me know.

Seriously though, what I've been seeing and hearing it appears to me like cult members refusing to be deprogrammed. Definitely folks who do not unplug and go touch grass. Or is it personality disordered people finally revealing themselves? Some of it reminds me of the former spouse's behavior. Been a while since my threat radar for external avenues has been this spun up. You know the hair on the back of the neck level stuff. I know the stats aren't good in the gen pop of the USA as far as "issues" either personality wise or other disorders. I take the those stats with a large grain of salt tho. Take into account the profit motive of big pharma and big therapy and how the narrative has been crafted in modernity? Numbers don't lie but liars can do statistics. I'm a hard skeptic when it comes to any narrative anymore.

If I could, I would like to be in a rural farming / ranching area or at least in a area that has a bit better grasp on basic facts, better tethered to the real. You know? Thankfully, the 'hood where I'm located is working class, lots of trades. Even so. I think I'll definitely be looking at some sort of something for self protection at a distance. Along with training to get 'good' at it.

Wishing all here all the best.

AphoticAtramentous · November 09, 2024, 12:37:17 AM

Quote from: StartingHealing on November 08, 2024, 05:26:56 PMNumbers don't lie but liars can do statistics. I'm a hard skeptic when it comes to any narrative anymore.

So absolutely true. I wish we didn't have to doubt the validity of everything these days but alas.

Regards,
Aphotic.

StartingHealing · November 09, 2024, 06:25:32 PM

Quote from: AphoticAtramentous on November 09, 2024, 12:37:17 AM
Quote from: StartingHealing on November 08, 2024, 05:26:56 PMNumbers don't lie but liars can do statistics. I'm a hard skeptic when it comes to any narrative anymore.
So absolutely true. I wish we didn't have to doubt the validity of everything these days but alas.

Regards,
Aphotic.

AphoticAtramentous,

Indeed. Personally I look at motives when I'm evaluating information and where that info is coming from. The typical fame, money, power, clout, social cred, etc. Doesn't hurt that I'm the sort to seek out whats behind the curtain as it were. The lockdowns were a hard trigger for me. Especially since the data coming out about that whole mess is like..

For me, if people that have acted in illegal ways were outed and held accountable, my trust would be somewhat restored with the various institutions of current year. With some glaring exceptions like legacy media, most social media, still haven't made up my mind about X though. I think that in the arc of history, the gen pop of the USA have been propagandized to a point where it's become so painfully obvious that more and more folks are finally starting to see through the BS. Or is that me hoping against hope?

Wishing all here all the best

StartingHealing · November 11, 2024, 06:49:14 PM

11-11-2024

Been lets see about 2 weeks since I started on dirty carnivore. There are times that a wee bit o carb, and that tooth will not shut up until I have a bit. Definitely has reset the taste buds though. Things like raisins at one point wasn't that "sweet" to me and now ... mouth almost puckers from the sweet. Like weekend breakfasts which was 1st breakfast on the farm. 2 piece toast where it's soggy with butter, 2 sausage patties (small) per piece with 2 fried in butter eggs. That will currently run me most of the day. Start getting peckish round 5 or so. No crash, no hunger pangs, Brain steady, been noticing that I want to move more and when I do it's easier and way less recoup time after. Went on walk with the doggo and bar napkin figuring did about 1 1/4 mile in about a hour, maybe a tickle over. We were covering some ground there, you know?

Radar is still higher than usual. I know that I'm on a list somewhere. I can not, not be just based on the creators I listen to, orgs that I used to be a member of, some orgs that I have donated to, passport, and IDK why the thought of getting something in case of and that whole background check crap has always given me pause for some reason. Now though.. eh (insert cuss word here) 'em!

Wishing all here all the best