What it feels like (depression)

[JRose]

I thought of this a few days ago as I was dealing with the days getting darker and shorter and colder: each new day it feels a little like I am going further and further out to sea, further from the beautiful white sandy beach with the sun shining and a light breeze blowing and the sand so warm and soft under my feet. As I get further from that shoreline, I sink deeper and deeper until I am under the surface. As I experience being under the waves I look up and the beach seemes so distant and I think I cannot even remember what it was like, being there. All I know now is the cold that surrounds me and it seems to be not so bad, just something to get used to. But still I long for that lovely beach, hope I will be there again sometime soon.