Hello everyone

[cat87]

Hi everyone,

I'm looking for support and solidarity on my healing journey as I have very little people around me who offer me this.

Recently discovered CPTSD and it's like suddenly everything makes sense. I have been in therapy for 5 years but I feel it is a long journey to get me to a place of safety.

I have recently limited contact with family to almost nothing but I am still struggling with the guilt of this despite everything. My childhood and teenage years were neglectful, emotionally abusive and I am still the family scapegoat even in my adult years.

I am learning and healing every day but it isn't always linear and despite having my own children now I don't always feel strong enough to keep pushing on. I have days where my shame and guilt and self loathing feel like too heavy a burden.

Discovering CPTSD has been a huge wow moment for me though and I now know there isn't something wrong with me, as such. I feel positive that I can keep growing and keep learning with all the resources available, and I am looking forward to utilising this forum as part of that healing journey.

So much love to you all fellow CPTSDers!

[LilBrokenFae]

Welcome to the forum! I'm new here as well. I found cPTSD info some time ago and I remember clearly how that aha moment felt. How liberating it can be to realize you responded naturally and right as a young human to intense stress.
I hope you find everything you're looking for. 

[NarcKiddo]

Welcome. I wish you all the best on your healing journey and hope you will find rest and comfort here.

[AphoticAtramentous]

Recently discovered CPTSD and it's like suddenly everything makes sense.

I felt very much the same way when I discovered it!

Welcome to the forum, I hope you find it helpful!

Regards,
Aphotic.

[Lakelynn]

Hello cat87,

This is a supportive place with people that understand. Welcome to our little "nest."

[Papa Coco]

Cat87

I'm touched by your introduction post. I absolutely empathize with every word. I too was a scapegoat and, at 64 now, I still deal with guilt for not being good enough to and for my family of origin (FOO).

I am happy for you that you've discovered CPTSD and have seen how well it fits with all you are feeling. I remember feeling like I'd finally hit the jackpot when I too was finally diagnosed with it. Not that I'm happy that we have CPTSD, but happy to finally have a diagnosis that fits, which brings healing, and resources, and friends who understand us.

Here on the forum, you will find the love and connection that can only be found with people of like circumstance. I've been a member for a few years now and the people here have been one of the defining healing components that give me the strength to keep going.

I love the people here, and I hope you find that you can feel their love also.

A big, open armed Welcome to the community!
 

[Merl]

Sending you from a new member having come out of a dark tunnel into the discovery of my having CPTSD.  All the best on your healing journey. 

[Desert Flower]

Welcome cat87 and Merl, happy you found us. I hear what you're saying and here, we're not alone anymore.

[Kizzie]

Hello and a warm welcome Cat. I do hope you find what you are looking for here and it helps in your recovery. 

[Little2Nothing]

Welcome Cat!

[Hope67]

Welcome Cat, 
Hope 

[wileycat66]

I have recently limited contact with family to almost nothing but I am still struggling with the guilt of this despite everything. My childhood and teenage years were neglectful, emotionally abusive and I am still the family scapegoat even in my adult years.


Discovering CPTSD has been a huge wow moment for me though and I now know there isn't something wrong with me, as such. I feel positive that I can keep growing and keep learning with all the resources available, and I am looking forward to utilising this forum as part of that healing journey.

So much love to you all fellow CPTSDers!

I am new here, too, and relate to what you wrote. It is encouraging in a way to know what this is and that there are now ways to heal and other people (too many others) are in the same boat.