Trauma response/reaction

[Kitz426]

You're welcome Chart. I agree with you that the initial incidents did actually happen which is what I've believed all along. But I'm unsure at what point the severe flashback was triggered and reality went wonky. Unfortunately it's difficult to tell now. But you're correct in that once the police had come out my neighbours have been mostly really careful and very quiet.

I was convinced though that they'd hacked my WiFi and so had access to my phone but that was either a mind game they played or part of the flashback and actually not real. I'm still afraid to use my WiFi just in case as I went to the lengths of getting a new phone and changing my phone contract and all seems okay now. That part I'm not sure if it was real or not but I reported it to the police anyway but have heard nothing from them about it. These people have stopped at nothing to make my life  utterly miserable and have really frightened me into this heightened state of hypervigilance and emotional flashback to previous victimisation which seems to be unremitting at the moment.

I say my psychiatrist again this morning who has prescribed something that will hopefully help with that. He is seeing me again next week to see how I am getting on with it and also to just see how I'm doing given what he's calling the crisis I'm experiencing at the moment. I feel very grateful to have his support and understanding in what is an incredibly difficult time for me.

I am  very similar I also need time to process things to find the truth of a situation. And the amount of time I need also varies. I find I need to just let things be and sit for a while before I make decisions or respond. I've had to learn that just reacting gets me nowhere.

I've decided that I'm going to go ahead with talking to the police about my initial statement and just see what comes from that. I'm not expecting anything really but I think it's worth not giving up at this point in case something positive can come from it whatever that might be.

Thank you again, much love,

Kitz