Three Good Things Today (Part 9)

[Maria S]

Sounds good Aphotic! When will you hear about the job?

For yesterday:

1. I visited a new gynaecologist in a new hospital. I was scary. And it was a man. But he was very good at dealing with PTSD stuff. And
   superkind. It was a major hurdle and went well.
2. There's a neighbourhood party and several people inquired if I would come. It will be fun.
3. We didn't have money for a christmas tree and decorations this years. A neighbour learned this. And now everyone is giving us things. A
   (fake) christmas tree. Things to put in it. Candles. Decorations. It is heartwarming.

[Maria S]

1. I survived a talk with CPS and voiced my goals.

2. I am broke. To the point of having no money for food. Today I was surprised with a 20 euro food cheque and bag of food by the local social work organisation.

3. My kid has his birthday tomorrow and will be with me.

[Blueberry]

Seems a lot of major Good Stuff today, Mathilde.  Congrats on getting through talk with CPS and voicing your goals.

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Good things for me today, hm, let me see

1) Enjoyed reading part of a historical novel
2) Enjoyed looking at a series of up-close squirrel photos

[SenseOrgan]

1. Had a not terrible night of sleep due to a benzo
2. Jogging went alright
3. Got really sweet feedback from a friend
4. Partially came out of overwhelm and was able to post here again

[Maria S]

Thanks Blueberry.

Seems like a good thing, SenseOrgan. Would you want to share the feedback? Feel absolutely free not to! It can be good to speak out our good sides. But only if you want to.

Yesterday:

1. I worked again. My colleagues were the sweetest. My workkids too. They do not speak. Or barely. But have brilliant gifts in other areas. I made drawings with a 9 year old with creative talent. She has her own artistic style. And shows a vast phantasy life in drawing. Just not in words. It's a joy to see her work. There is a 10 year old boy I work with. He has emotional talent that is wondrous. I'm considered sensitive. But this boy is humbling...we walked outdoors. He can wander in front of traffic, so he held my hand. I was at peace. But suddenly had angry intrusions. The boy withdrew his hand. Right away. And started to cry. We were side by side. I showed nothing. He did not see me. But he refused to even walk with me. Until I stopped my mean thoughts. He knew. I'm sure. Because he always does this. Am I at peace? He likes me. Am I near and not at peace? He gets upset. My colleague says it is him. That he is always upset about nothing. That I was calm and did no wrong. But I disagree. It was me, not him. He's just eerily sensitive to our mood. He mirrored me and forced me to bring my mind to peace. Before I was allowed to be near. That is...a great lesson. In several ways. 
 
2. I had a Christmas present. A bag! It is strong and beautiful. And I needed one. But could not afford. Nice.

3. Kid had his birthday. We had cake, balloons, a card and all. And I invited dad to go out for a birthday dinner for kid. It took me some courage. But it was good. I think kid was happy we did this together. Dad and I did well this time. It was about time. 
 

[SenseOrgan]

Maria S
You're so attuned! The kids you work with are lucky to have you. Happy birthday to kid   

Thank you for inviting me to elaborate. I experience shame around being praised and I was only vaguely aware that I was avoiding it here too. So here we go... My friend expressed gratitude for me and our friendship. She said I have a lot of beautiful qualities. She appreciates how I can formulate things clearly, never judge her and are always supportive. She finds that really beautiful and inspiring. It kind of leaves me speechless. Handling such positive feedback is a challenge in it's own right for me. I am letting it in as much as I can and do appreciate what she said despite that aspect. I also appreciate the vulnerability it takes to give somebody this kind of feedback. Especially since my friend is dealing with the same stuff we are dealing with.

[Maria S]

Thank you for the compliment and birthday wishes. I'm not always attuned, sometimes I'm so overwhelmed I cannot. But I love working with these kids.

Those were beautiful compliments you got. That says something about you. It is great you can be all that to her. And also that she finds the words to speak that out. That sounds like a good friendship, mutually.

[Blueberry]

1) Finally got some washing off the outside line, where it's been hanging for about 10 days thru rain and snow, re-washed and hung up.

2) Second load in the washing machine rn

3) I feel a bit better sorted and more able to get on with (some) things

[Maria S]

Oh Blueberry, you just made my day. I had my laundry hanging outside. In the rain. For a week. And felt a bit different. The help says nobody leaves the laundry outside anymore, in winter. I feel a lot less alone now.

1. Kid was here.
2. I spoke to my friend on the phone and I drank coffee with people from my neighbourhood.
3. I feel calm today. I did not need anxiety medication for days.

[SenseOrgan]

Maria S
Yeah it's great we met. We have our issues to thank for that.
The same goes for this forum and the wonderful people visiting here. You can take that as a compliment yourself  

[Maria S]

Thanks! That is kind! Likewise.

[Blueberry]

1) I bounded out of bed today, while it was still dark and before my alarm (not because it's Christmas Eve I hasten to add, but because today the energy and wherewithal are there)

2) I'm taking a little break now, but I've been quite active tidying and cleaning and throwing out papers

3) I enjoyed shovelling snow out front

4) Christmas celebrations start this afternoon here and I have a celebration to go to, followed by late night church service

[AphoticAtramentous]

1. I planted some basil. It's my first garden plant... have no idea how it'll go.
2. I did an errand for someone.
3. Best of all: I have the house to myself again!!

Regards,
Aphotic.