Waiting for hospitalization.. Update

[Rizzo]

Hi, this is Rizzo here.
I wrote a post about waiting to be hospitalized. So I was finally hospitalized. I'm in a psychiatric ward for women with CPTSD due to sexual trauma. I'm trying to help myself after a difficult period of flashbacks, dissociation, and nightmares.
I won't be able to put into words the pain I'm feeling right now.
I feel like everything is too much for me.  That this life is too much for me.
But for the people I love, I will stay strong... At least I will try as much as I can.
I feel safe here. There's another girl with me in the ward. This is a special place for girls like me... I'm glad I have this safe place in the world.
But the pain... the pain is unbearable. I'm experiencing flashbacks that I feel are eating me alive.
I'm trying so hard to move on and continue with my day but it's too hard.
Trying not to take a lot of SOS pills... but it's hard.
Thank you for your time and listening.
Wishing all of us better days. 

[Dalloway]

Rizzo, I can´t really put into words how much I wish you all the best in this process. I´m so sorry for all the pain you feel at this moment and I just wanted to say that you are very brave making this huge step. And I want you to know that you are not alone. Rooting for you with all my heart. 

[Hope67]

Hi Rizzo,
Thank you for your update, and I'm glad you feel safe there.  I am also rooting for you.   Sending you a hug of support, if that feels ok 
Hope 

[Rizzo]

Hi Rizzo,
Thank you for your update, and I'm glad you feel safe there.  I am also rooting for you.   Sending you a hug of support, if that feels ok 
Hope 

Rizzo, I can´t really put into words how much I wish you all the best in this process. I´m so sorry for all the pain you feel at this moment and I just wanted to say that you are very brave making this huge step. And I want you to know that you are not alone. Rooting for you with all my heart. 

I'm really touched by your words. Thank you very much. Returning the hug if that's comfortable for you. 

[Chart]

Hi Rizzo. I'm hoping you're getting the help you need to get through this. I'm so sorry for your suffering. Sending much love and support. Please write and keep us updated how you are doing.
 

[Rizzo]

Hi Rizzo. I'm hoping you're getting the help you need to get through this. I'm so sorry for your suffering. Sending much love and support. Please write and keep us updated how you are doing.
 

I will.. thank you
a hug, if that's okay. 

[Chart]

Hugs are absolutely ok for me
 

[Hope67]

 

[Chart]

Thinking about you Rizzo. Hope you are hanging in there. Stay strong and sending hugs.