Desperation, hopelessness, loneliness and despair for escape

[blueteddy]

Today, I found myself feeling overwhelmingly desperate and hopeless about my situation as an asylum seeker. Each email I send feels like it disappears into a void, and I'm left wondering if anyone even sees my pleas for help. It's been months without any meaningful response, and the silence feels deafening. I can't help but think that my case isn't severe enough for anyone to care, that I'm just another voice lost in the noise.

The more I research, the more daunting it seems. The process for obtaining asylum feels like an insurmountable mountain, and I'm standing at the base, looking up at the peak with no clear path to follow. I feel helpless, like I'm running in circles without making any progress. Each day brings the weight of uncertainty, and I'm scared of what the future holds.

I've tried to reach out to various organizations and individuals for support, but most of the responses I've received have only added to my frustration. They often don't cater to my needs, leaving me feeling invisible. I feel as if I'm fighting against a system that doesn't want to help me, and that thought crushes my spirit.

The fear of remaining stuck in this situation is paralyzing. I just want to escape this life of abuse, danger and neglect, to find a place where I can be safe and accepted for who I am. But every avenue I explore seems to lead to dead ends, and I wonder if I'll ever find the help I so desperately need.

In moments like these, I feel the loneliness wrap around me like a heavy blanket. It's hard to shake off the feeling that I'm alone in this fight, with no one to turn to who understands the depth of my struggles. I wish I could just see a glimpse of a certain fixed star, something that assures me that a better future is certain, fixed, and waiting.

Tomorrow is the daunting day for my passport appointment. At least that is one little step closer to escape and freedom even though it is just a passport and not thousands of dollars to escape this country. But maybe that can serves as a little light to guide me forward... 😞

[Dalloway]

Blueteddy, I´m sorry you´re in such a difficult situation and that you feel lost in this process. I don´t have similar experiences, so I don´t have any advice on this, but I wanted to tell you that you´re not alone and I really hope that your appointment goes well and that you can take one step forward, even if it seems like a small step. Take care.