Self-cringe is at it again

[geckoskittlezx7900338]

If I'm up a height and feeling particularly insecure / frustrated / pissed off then I would read something I wrote myself hearing an ugly voice in my head I know my voice doesn't actually sound like that but I'm just really worried about what vibes I give off to others I'm constantly imagining images and relevant text/speech/sayings and goings-on in my head that trigger certain emotions (either funny scenarios, or just really uncomfortable awkward stuff that makes me cringe and makes me grimace) I can't think straight at all I worry I'm an ugly embarrassing undesirable personality typology and not a one I subjectively deem "cooler" for a lack of better term.
I worry that people think my way of speaking / writing (using vocabulary) comes across as more feminine than masculine.

[Lakelynn]

Insecurity, frustration and anger are automatic de-stabilizers when it comes to the internal psyche. We struggle to maintain a sense of well-being and acceptance, sometimes periodically or more.

Have you thought about who exactly you need to accept you, with speaking or writing? Is it a global "other" or someone specific?

Many times I'll go into my own head to entertain myself while doing a task or experiencing things which I've done many times before. If someone happens to notice a particular way I move or whatever, they may call my attention to it. I just grin and exaggerate, and we both feel 'seen.' I think that is a lot of the purpose in everyday life-feeling seen, and if we can, enjoying it.