Hello

[fozzie55]

Hello everyone.
I am a 55 year old man who was diagnosed with complex PTSD 5 years ago.
I was a staff nurse in theatre recovery and I was assaulted by a patient and beaten severely enough to have concussion for 10 weeks. Worse my nursing colleagues ran away and left me to it.
Six months later it happened again and everything spun out of control.
During CBT I admitted that I had been physically, psychologically and emotionally abused by my parents. This led to me meeting and marrying a girl I later found out was psychopathic. She gaslit me for 8 years and the violence and terror increased.
I now am unable to nurse any more, a career I held together for 35 years and my whole life has changed.
It took me a long time to find any support but now that I have I hope it leads to something positive.
I have no contact with my family and I have no friends. I have the support of a wonderfully understanding partner. I am determined to beat this and find some peace. So, hello.
 

[Hope67]

Hi Fozzie,
I am so sorry that you experienced all those things.

I'm glad you've found your way here, and hope you'll find it to be a supportive place. 
Hope

[Chart]

Hello Fozzie, me too, 55, me too determined to heal and move beyond the things that were done to me as a child.
Sorry to hear your story but glad you're here. Welcome, Chart

[Kizzie]

Hi Fozzie and a warm welcome to OOTS! I am so sorry for what you have been through and are struggling with to this day. I do hope that being here will give you a sense of connection and a safe space to talk about everything. Everyone does get it which is a relief or so I've found. I hope you find the same support and validation. 

[Blueberry]

Welcome to the forum, Fozzie   I'm sorry about what all you've been through.

I'm in my 50's too and have recently realised I can't work even the very part-time I was managing for a good few years. It's been a hard realisation to make, it's shaken me up a bit, maybe more than other things recently.

I hope you find peace and support on the forum and increasingly find it in your daily life. 

[Armee]

 

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry for what you've been through but so glad to hear you now have a supportive partner in your corner.

[Papa Coco]

Hi Fozzie,

A very warm welcome to the forum. Your introduction touches me deeply. I am struck by the abandonment of your peers leaving you to be beaten by the patient. I'm so sorry that happened how it did. And then to have it happen a second time. I'm so sorry to read about that.

I hope this forum is helpful for you as you navigate the healing journey of CPTSD. We're all in this together. I hope this forum is as good for you as it's been for me. A lot of really good people are here.

I look forward to future interactions.

Welcome

[AphoticAtramentous]

I'm sorry to hear about your experiences, Fozzie. I feel so much anger over people who hurt those working in the medical sector, hurt those who are only trying to help and heal others. I'm sorry you're unable to nurse anymore. I hope you've found something to fulfil your time now, and am glad to hear that you cut ties with your family.

Regards,
Aphotic.