A Bit About Me

[ARoseByAnyOtherName]

Hi Everyone,

(Trigger warning: mention of alcohol abuse)

I'm "Rose", I'm in my late 20s and about 6 months ago my current therapist suggested that I have CPTSD and that I read Pete Walker's book. I wasn't expecting to relate to quite so much of it... My story starts with the binge drinking that my mother does, which I think has been bad since I was 4 or 5 years old, and unfortunately got a whole lot worse after my health problems which began a few years later. I've been going to the doctors repeatedly for the last decade seeking help with chronic pain, but only ever received the half-diagnosis of fibromyalgia. I have long been aware that mental health contributed to how well I managed my physical health, so I began working on that, which eventually lead me here. (Naturally I now believe the pain is due to armoring)

Looking forward, I feel positive, impatient, concerned: I have already done a lot of work on my CPTSD but I am also aware that it effects my life in thousands of tiny ways and I'm just keen to be the best person that I can be. I've been lurking on this forum for about 2 months now, but I finally decided to introduce myself as I'm hoping to start a journal page here. Knowing that I'm not the only one who reacted to their trauma in this way helps me to not feel like I'm just crazy or silly, so thankyou for being here.

Sending love to you all,
Rose.

[Kizzie]

Hi and welcome to OOTS Rose. I'm so glad you decided to post and that you want to start a journal.  It's the most popular part of the site because we can tell our history and share our thoughts and feelings with others who as you say know what you're talking about.

[AphoticAtramentous]

Welcome Rose. I absolutely know what you mean by resonating with other's experiences and feeling not so "crazy or silly" as you describe it. Glad to hear about your mental healing work, and I hope your therapist and these resources will be able to assist you through all this CPTSD guff.

Regards,
Aphotic.