Working through this wound

[ednasurvivalmode]

Fear of abandonment is something I see deeply rooted in myself. In learning and observing myself, I realize that if someone shows the slightest hint of familiar behavior indicating a past experience, I go into a fear space. As I sift through all the baggage unpacked for this lesson, it occured to me that I often "give up before I start" when it comes to people. My recent experience has shown me that I can overcome these fears. They still happen and are very real to me but I'm only experiencing from my point of view and how narrow that has been. I know how to be kind and Ive learned to implement boundaries again. Now, I am struggling to open up. Ive closed myself off out of necessity because Im a recovering oversharer. Where is that middle ground? I dont think this is a question that someone else can answer for me but I hope that by posting this, you can find solace in knowing youre not alone on your quest for answers. I will try to allow myself to take comfort as well.