ketamine?

[MountainGirl]

If anyone has any suggestions I'd be glad to hear them. I tried antidepressants - zoloft, imipramine stelazine and effexor but they all had side effects I hated. When I got stuck in anxiety and simply couldn't function there was a psychiatrist (overseas, in Asia) who prescribed Xanax on an as needed basis and that worked to get me out of my non functioning state so I could cope again. However in the US this isn't an option. Everyone seems scared to death of such drugs so I have been stuck for three + years and my savings has dwindled to almost nothing. I will have to sell my house and relocate now. So, in desperation, I tried ketamine in a nasal spray and was completely amazed by the effect. It was like flipping a switch - for the first time in years I was functioning and taking care of business. And most amazing of all, my suicidal thoughts were replaced by a complete revulsion at the thought of SI. That was what shocked me the most - I found SI to be a disgusting possibility and that has NEVER happened before. I had always, for decades, kept that possibility as a back up plan but under ketamine it was totally off the table. For me, this stuff has proven very effective - for a few days. I didn't take much, a very low dose which didn't last more than maybe three days but it has given me hope. But it seems like insurance won't cover a full treatment so I am considering going to Mexico. Is there anyone here who has had experience with so called "medical tourism" of any kind? Is anyone familiar with Mexican tourist clinics or how to determine the reliability of such clinics? Probably this inquiry is a very long shot but no harm in asking, eh?