Joining today

[miss understood]

Hi. It's a big day for me. I decided to seek out your group and take a chance by joining. After a lifetime of personal chaos and confusion, I recently met an insightful therapist who introduced me to Pete Walker's book and CPTSD. For the first time in my life, I realized that I'm not alone. I'm not the only one like me.

I've begun a journey to understand, heal, accept, and get to know myself. And others like me. To find my voice. To Speak. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

[Jdog]

Miss Understood-

It's so great that you have taken the step of joining our forum.  I, also, found Pete Walker on the Internet and was grateful that my panic attacks, etc. were pretty normal considering my cptsd, which I only understood by doing this research.  Please look around the site, chime in when you are comfortable, ask questions, and contribute your own ideas.  We are a community of learners who support one another in the quest for healing and wholeness.

Welcome aboard!

[miss understood]

I appreciate your kind words. Thank you for the "welcome"  and great suggestions. 

[VeryFoggy]

Welcome Miss Understand, So sorry to hear it has taken you a lifetime to find out what is wrong but glad that you finally have  I knew there was something wrong for a long time, but did not get diagnosed until I was 57. But I am glad to know and it gives me something to work towards.

Before my diagnosis?  I just knew there was something wrong with me. I knew I was feeling a lot more than other people did in the same situations. Say 4 mangers and the boss are sitting in a conference room, and the 4 managers are getting chewed out. And I am one of the managers.  And the boss is a wildly angry apoplectic man who yelled first and asked questions later. And say he was screaming at the 4 of us.  I was the one paralyzed with fear.  The rest were merely uncomfortable or embarrassed.  But me? I was terrified and cried in the bathroom after the meeting was over.

So I've known a long time, particularly around angry people like my old boss that something was wrong. I also know or am learning how to either stick up for myself, fight through the fear and stick up for myself or else walk away. Since being diagnosed I have practiced many times giving that old boss a piece of my mind!

Anyway welcome and glad to have you!

[mourningdove]

Welcome, miss understood! 

Great to hear that you have a therapist who would recommend Pete Walker. I wish you the best on your journey. You are definitely not alone.

[C.]

Welcome Miss understood.  I remember when I first came across Walker's book and suddenly everything started to make sense for me.  It sounds like that may have happened for you too.  I am so glad that you found this group and reached out.  I think that you will find support and healing here.

It's encouraging to hear that your therapist pointed you in this direction.  Sounds very wise and supportive to me.

I look forward to learning together.  Welcome.

[Boatsetsailrose]

Hi
Thank u for sharing
I to came to feel not so alone and learn about cptsd last year -
After many years of feeling unwell, seeking solutions that didn't quite match and being in various addictions -
I was on a face book page for adult children of bpd parents and the identification I got there was great- that's where I first learnt of cptsd and started my journey of researching and finally finding a name to a wide collection of symptoms that have always felt like an uphill struggle ( steep hill with lots of wind ) to manage..
After another bout of depression and anxiety- not managing at work and failing friendships I self referred to a psychology service here in the UK ..
When I was assessed I said 'I think I have cptsd and I was then ( so gratefully ) assigned the senior therapist who specialises in child trauma-
I've just completed working for 3 mths with her and I found the experience so liberating, confirming and understood.. We covered a lot of ground and I feel ( finally ) so lucky to have found her and have all this material to work with -
Life is finally starting to open up as I find more stability within me
And as u say Pete walker - have just received his book and am v thankful .. I thought it would be a thin book but it is thick and rich with sections and help
As u say - being here and not being alone anymore - finding others like me -
That identification is so priceless

I wish u all the very best in your recovery journey miss understood and that u can get everything u need to be the person u were always meant to be 🌻