Let's hear it for the music!

[KayFly]

First, A little history of this song...

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia:
"Waiting Round to Die" is a folk/country song written and recorded by Texas singer/songwriter Townes Van Zandt. One of Van Zandt's more famous songs, "Waiting 'Round to Die" chronicles the life of a fictional drifter as he passes sadly through the experiences of an abusive father, the abandonment of his mother, drug and alcohol abuse, fast women, and even prison.

It was #31 in Rolling Stones 40 Saddest Country Songs:
"This is the first serious song I ever wrote," Van Zandt told the audience before introducing this somber tune on his 1973 record Live at the Old Quarter. Originally released on 1968's For the Sake of the Song, it's the solemn story of a boozy rambler struggling to see the point of a fruitless existence that precedes eternal silence, ending with this tragic couplet: "His name's Codeine, he's the nicest thing I've seen/Together we're going to wait around and die." It's delicately heartbreaking and eerily prophetic to Van Zandt's early demise at 52 from alcoholism. Still, he was hesitant to play it at concerts since, as he said, "Nobody wants to hear blues on blues on blues."

I've been listening to this song for 3 days...

I discovered it through The Be Good Tanyas beautiful version...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0SmXVrLlZ4

But we must acknowledge it's origin, Mr. Townes Van Zandt....https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDymc0CJ6pQ


I like folk, I like blues, rock, hip hop, funk, but I have always been a bit impartial to country. I guess I am not big on the new "twangy" sounding stuff.  But in the research of this old country song, I've gained a more of an appreciation of old country, further than Johnny Cash, and some Hank Williams...

This song is really sad. I hesitated to share it, but parts of the song hit home. I also like that it's about a fictional character that represented his own struggle. I find that so creative and inspirational, for my own art. I really love the blues. All music originates from it.

Here are the lyrics to Waitin 'Round to Die:

Sometimes I don't know where this dirty road is taking me
Sometimes I can't even see the reason why
I guess I keep on gamblin', lots of booze and lots of ramblin'
It's easier than just a-waitin' 'round to die

One-time friends I had a ma, I even had a pa
He beat her with a belt once 'cause she cried
She told him to take care of me, she headed down to Tennessee
It's easier than just a-waitin' 'round to die

I came of age and found a girl in a Tuscaloosa bar
She cleaned me out and hit it on the sly
I tried to kill the pain, I bought some wine and hopped a train
Seemed easier than just a-waitin' 'round to die

A friend said he knew where some easy money was
We robbed a man and brother, did we fly
The posse caught up with me, drug me back to Muskogee
It's two long years, just a-waitin' 'round to die

Now I'm out of prison, I got me a friend at last
He don't steal or cheat or drink or lie
His name's Codeine, he's the nicest thing I've seen
Together we're gonna wait around and die

[Lifecrafting]

Wow... never heard this one before KayFly.

I'm a lover of ballads and this fits the bill quite nicely; thanks for sharing it.

[Dutch Uncle]

Great song, KayFly. Both versions.

Thanks for sharing. 

[KayFly]

Glad you liked it LifeCrafting and Dutch. I'm learning to play it now.

[Dutch Uncle]

A song by the rockers of Rush again.
I regularly play this when I get up, to kick off my day.
The bolded parts are a good reminder for me as to what to focus on.

"The Spirit Of Radio"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MdLUx_F2FUA

Begin the day with a friendly voice
A companion unobtrusive
Plays that song that's so elusive
And the magic music makes your morning mood

Off on your way, hit the open road
There is magic at your fingers
For the Spirit ever lingers
Undemanding contact in your happy solitude

[Chorus:]
Invisible airwaves crackle with life
Bright antennae bristle with the energy
Emotional feedback on timeless wavelength
Bearing a gift beyond price, almost free

All this machinery making modern music
Can still be open-hearted
Not so coldly charted
It's really just a question of your honesty, yeah
Your honesty
One likes to believe in the freedom of music
But glittering prizes and endless compromises
Shatter the illusion of integrity

[Chorus]

"For the words of the profits were written on the studio wall
Concert hall
And echoes with the sound of salesmen...of salesmen...of salesmen."


Writer(s):  music: Geddy Lee (bass), Alex Lifeson (guitar) Lyrics: Neil Peart (drums)
Copyright: Ole Core Music Publishing, Core Music Publishing

[DaisyMae]

The happiest experiences I have are from junior high from the age of 11 to 14.  I went thru plenty of * as well.  Most of my friends were all in similar situations as myself. Unparented and left to parent ourselves.  We so desperately wanted to escape our pain and be older than our years.  I am not sure what we thought it would accomplish.  Maybe it was wishful thinking that we would be able to runaway and take care of ourselves.  We did a lot of stupid stuff but we grew as a result, unfortunately a lot faster than most of our peers.  We were older than our years and missed out on a lot of childhood that we never got to have.  Fortunately, most of us lived through it and are still here to talk about it.

Dutch, RUSH really brings back some memories.  2112 has always been my favorite. I took time to listen to them and Supertramp tonight and drink tea.... Rush, Boston, Kansas, Supertramp, Jethro Tull, Yes, Sammy (Hagar of course), and many more were our teachers about life in junior high (actually starting at 5th grade so age 10).  They helped to parent us.  I will not include the lyrics to 2112 but have included a link below.  It is a long montage of music but is one of the best ever put together in my opinion.

2112
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AZm1_jtY1SQ

Listened to Breakfast in America by Supertramp after 2112.  The Logical Song is my favorite on this record.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mh3Kk5tZSmo

The Logical Song

By Supertramp

When I was young, it seemed that life was so wonderful,
A miracle, oh it was beautiful, magical.
And all the birds in the trees, well they'd be singing so happily,
Joyfully, playfully watching me.
But then they send me away to teach me how to be sensible,
Logical, responsible, practical.
And they showed me a world where I could be so dependable,
Clinical, intellectual, cynical.

There are times when all the world's asleep,
The questions run too deep
For such a simple man.
Won't you please, please tell me what we've learned
I know it sounds absurd
But please tell me who I am.

Now watch what you say or they'll be calling you a radical,
Liberal, fanatical, criminal.
Won't you sign up your name, we'd like to feel you're
Acceptable, respectable, presentable, a vegetable!

At night, when all the world's asleep,
The questions run so deep
For such a simple man.
Won't you please, please tell me what we've learned
I know it sounds absurd
But please tell me who I am.

Songwriters: DAVIES, RICHARD / HODGSON, ROGER

Then I listened to Rush's Fly by Night record.  It also brought back memories but is also had much more meaning to me at this point in my life.  I know it is time for me to make a change, make decisions.  I will hopefully be able to leave behind the empty feeling inside.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17t4bSaMvl4

Fly By Night

By Rush

Airport scurry flurry faces
Parade of passers by
People going many places
With a smile or just a sigh
Waiting waiting pass the time
Another cigarette
Get in line - gate thirty-nine
The time is not here yet (end)

Why try? I know why
The feeling inside me says it's time I was gone
Clear head, new life ahead
I want to be king now not just one more pawn

Fly by night, away from here
Change my life again
Fly by night goodbye my dear
My ship isn't coming and I just can't pretend

Moon rise, thoughtful eyes
Staring back at me from the window beside
No fright or hindsight
Leaving behind that empty feeling inside

Start a new chapter
Find what I'm after
It's changing every day
The change of a season
Is enough of a reason
To want to get away

Quiet and pensive
My thoughts apprehensive
The hours drift away
Leaving my homeland
Playing a lone hand
My life begins today

And I will leave you with one final tune from Rush's 2112.  This is a sad, beautiful song but never dreamed that this song would have the significance to me that it has had over the last couple of years.  I want to be able to believe that I am strong enough to support my husband as well as myself.  That I could continue to be here for him, help and understand him.  But the reality is that I no longer have that strength and need to make some choices in the interest of my own self-preservation.  We have changed in very different ways (or I have changed and he has not) and no longer can relate to one another.  But, I am still at a point where I would rather die than give up on my husband.  I so desperately want to believe that he will be able to fill the emptiness and be able to truly love me for me.  If I leave him, I will feel like I have failed him, gave up on him.  That I should be able to put him first because he needs someone, and that I should not be selfish and put me ahead of helping him, loving him.  The song made me cry like it has never made me before.  It was a very painful cry, it is an internal fight within in me that I can't seem to get to come to conclusion, a choice. I need to learn how to fill the emptiness intrinsically and learn how to love myself, believe in my self-worth, and that I deserve to be loved and supported the same way or better than I love my husband.  Until I can fill that void, either choice I make in my marriage puts me at risk because I will punish myself either way.  I have included the link and lyrics below.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jI0w7X2Swl4 

Tears

By Rush

All of the seasons
And all of the days
All of the reasons
Why I've felt this way
So long
So long

Then lost in that feeling
I looked in your eyes
I noticed emotion
And that you had cried
For me
I can see

What would touch me deeper
Tears that fall from eyes
That only cry?
Would it touch you deeper
Than tears that fall from eyes
That know why?

A lifetime of questions
Tears on your cheek
I tasted the answers
And my body was weak
For you
The truth

Songwriters: GEDDY LEE WEINRIB

I am going to take a break from the forum for a few while I work on getting through this stage of my life and can figure out who I am, what I want, why am I here, what is my purpose?  I wish everyone well on the forum and the best of luck in your own journey of recovery.

DaisyMae 

[Dutch Uncle]

Thanks for sharing, DaisyMae.

Supertramp, Boston, Jethro Tull, Yes... yes they ring a bell for me too.

May music sooth you during your time away from us here. And perhaps not only sooth you, but as I said in my opening post of this thread, may it (re)connect you, period.

Happy, sad, inspiring, soothing, opening the floodgates of grief... Anything goes.

Take care. Just your being here serves a purpose!
Where's the :kiss: smiley when you need one?

Well, this'll do as well:

Oh... And be back!   

[Dutch Uncle]

Triggered by thoughts on how I deal with Anger and Frustration, how to find expression for them, I just put on the album of the Henry Rollins Band, "Nice".

Well, nice is not something what 'regular' folks probably associate with, when hearing this hard rock/metal/trash-rock(?).

Yet, I sometimes feel so good when listening to it. It really is a great way for me to release my anger.


*** Trigger warnings for deep dark moods, and close-to-nudity artwork on the album cover, during the youtube video ***

Hello (hello darkness, hello pain)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VpVxP31-iRs

hello, hello, hello
hello darkness
hello pain

welcome back my friends
so good to see you again

why did you leave me
all by myself?
without you what would I do?
how would it feel to have to be real?

sometimes I feel like I'm living in a coma
but then I realize
I'm just lonely
I'm just lonely
I'm just lonely

hello, hello
hello darkness
pain, memories, shame
all the time wasted
self pity and blame
there you'll go now you know
been so long down below yeah

and sometimes I'd like to start all over
but then I realize
I'm just lonely
I'm just lonely
I'm just lonely

hello, hello
hello memories return
bridges I've burned
the lessons I've taught weren't the lessons I learned
and somehow I got this far
but I don't, I don't, I don't know how man

and sometimes I don't even want to be alive
but then I realize
I'm just lonely
I'm just lonely
I'm just lonely

Songwriters
WHITE, TANYA "FRECKLES" / WILSON, SHOMARI

Published by
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

[KayFly]

Hey Dutch 

Boa Sorte by Venesssa Da Mata and Ben Harper just came on my Google Play This is a really beautiful song. I'm glad you introduced it to me. Makes me think of you.

K

[Dutch Uncle]

  KayFly

A really happy and upbeat song from me for a change:

If I like it, I (just) do it - Jamiroquai (I wish I could put that into practice some more)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ECLb15QxLy4

Just know that if I like it, I 'll just do it, yeah

Said that we have all the time we need to make it right
Don't hurry for nobody, if it ain't the thing you like
Know your place and fit your space, young man, you will conform
I didn't hear my soul express those rules when I was born

Free to roam 'cause that's my home, you can't stop sweet inclination
The kids want the system breakin' down, not higher education
If it ain't no natural law then you can keep your regulations
'Cause if I like it, I do it

But I, I keep on movin', though they wanna bring me down
I gotta run for the cover
And keep on smilin' though they wanna tie me down
And give me death for the lover
And I keep on losin' though I'm provin' what I'm doin'
I'm still groovin' and if I like it, I do it, yeah

I like it, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, oh, I like it

You've got to help those people break that legislation
We can overcome this suffocation
Execute your natural liberation
Happy to enjoy rejuvenation

All around, hear the sound, no one can stop us now
A thousand rules for plastic fools, now they can take a bow
Surely there's been time to see, it doesn't work by now
So if I like it, I just do it

Still I keep on findin' that they're pushin' those distorted visions
And I keep on livin' but I'm dyin' 'cause of their decisions
If I keep on lookin', I can find an higher space
I'm still groovin' and if I like it, I do it, yeah

Oh yeah, if I like it, yes I know, if I like it
Yeah, don't you know? If I like it
If I like it, if I like it, if I like it
I'll just do it, yeah, yeah

I wanna do it, do it, do it, do it
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah
I gotta do it, yeah, come on

If you like, can do it, yeah
If you like, can do it, yeah
If you like, can do it, yeah
If you like, can do it, yeah
Just do it

I wanna do it, yeah, I think I'll do it now
I think if I'll like it I'm gonna do it
Stay, we gotta do it now
We gotta do it now, yeah
We gotta do it right now, now

Ah, there's my DJ, yeah
You know I wanna do it
Come on, let it out

Hey, everybody said that if you like it, I think you better do it
I think I'm gonna do it, I think I'm gonna do it
I think I'm gonna do it, you know I wanna do it
Come on, Peter let's do it, oh if you like it, yeah
Oh if you like it, yeah, oh if you like it, yeah

Songwriters
Kay, Jason / Van Gelder, Nick

Published by
Lyrics © EMI Music Publishing, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

[KayFly]

I like this Jam. Haha. Thanks for sharing. I know what you mean. My last song I posted was like one of the worlds saddest songs...

I dig this funky/jazzy sound...

[JohnnyBoy]

Gees where to begin lol I like Rush I like Rollins but when I'm in an especially pissy mood I spin some godsmack...shoot every godsmack song ever written. Usually I like the slower quiet ballad type stuff. But I think the song I will have to recommend on her...."Only God Knows Why" by Kid Rock, It speaks so much about how I feel inside...

"Only God Knows Why"


I've been sittin here
Tryin to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
And I feel like number one
Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son
And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills, but still I feel the same
Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks * with me
It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Out strecthed hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

Yeah
As it...hey

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the * that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin
I've been walking that there line
So I think I'll keep a walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

Only God
Only God
Only God knows why, why, why, why
Only God...knows...why, why, why
Only God knows why
Take me to the river edge
Take me to the river, hey hey hey

I will play this song over and over and over singin at the top of lungs feelin every word!

[KayFly]

I love that song Johnny Boy...

I like the one he does with Sheryl Crow a lot too. Heavy though!

[JohnnyBoy]

Picture, So do I lol

[KayFly]

Oh man. I am really sad. I was listening to one of my favorite artists Nikka Costa...her album "Everybody Got Their Somethin"...
I heard this song yesterday driving, and it made me feel really emotional, but it wasn't until I heard it today, and looked up what it said, that I really broke down, and realized why this song touched me so much.

Then I got inspired me to finish a song I started writing in March 2010. Never had the words to finish it until now.

Anyways, I want to share one of my favorite artists, a great song and a great album with you. The song is called "So Have I For You"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhOq8P09zFg&list=PLLnoO_3U-_Yxb-aOggdkFq4sMZx5rR8qU

I am a woman with a mission and a past to outdo
I don't need a gun I've got a microphone and a melody or two
Just like the earth has spent a thousand years making up for what we do
So have I for you

Your seeds of misery have sprouted and they try to block my way
The worst gets the better of you and you try to disarm me with an embrace
Just like the heart that's spent a lifetime forgiving what is cruel
So have I for you

Well mama you can choose the rain but I choose the sun
That's all I need to free myself

I am a woman with a mission and a past to outdo
I don't need a gun I've got a microphone and a melody or two
Just like the earth has spent a thousand years making up for what we do
So have I for you

I have justified every wave in our ocean
I have covered every range of emotion
And just like the sea has spent eternity at the mercy of the moon
So have I for you

Well mama you can choose the rain but I choose the sun
That's all I need to free myself

This bird's gonna fly so high
Watch my sky come undone
Mama you can choose the rain
But I choose the sun


On a better note...watch the girl move... This song is one of my favorites of hers as well "Like a Feather"..from the same album

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiI_caFfquA