4 year marriage with addict/narc

[outofdrama15]

My marriage was a total text book case. Looking back and reading over my past journal entries, I see that I was an easy target, I was open to allow any type of man into my life to try to complete me. And that's exactly what I did. I meet my husband in Feb and married him in may. He was arrested by July and the down hill battle begun. I got pregnant as soon as he was released for orison the begging of the next year and again down hill we went, he was using me and drugs and I was chasing him trying to figure out what was wrong with us. He never stayed out over night but would always go missing for hours at a time. Not until this year I decided I was tired. I was not accepting unacceptable behavior. He was never available to me and my children and it hurt. And wh n I decided to let him go this time it still hurt. It hurt bc he moved in so fast, it hurt bc reality is too clear. But I know now I am worth so much more. I don't have to endure the physical, emotional and mental abuse any more! And I don't have to allow him n his mistress to control me, I have to let go n let God. Healing 1 day at a time. Bc my unexplained behavior is so not me, but thankful I found this group it helps me to understand myself.

[Dutch Uncle]

Hi outofdrama15 

Welcome to Out of the Storm. Quite a history you have had, and it's great to read that through all the horrific pain he caused you you can sense the relief as well that's it's over. 

At OOTS, we welcome people who are dealing with cPTSD through a variety of life's events that befell us.
In the cPTSD Glossary you may find a lot that may resonate with your experiences. A few highlights to start your journey with:
On cPTSD
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Welcome again, I hope and wish this place and community will give you comfort and be of aid on your journey through cPTSD,


Dutch Uncle.