Hello

[sigiriuk]

Dear All
Like you I have CPTSD. I have only just been diagnosed with it, so it feels like I am under an avalanche of information.
Nevertheless, I am reading about the disorder. I have stopped drinking, so my emotional dysregulation is going at full tilt.
I am also realising how terrible my childhood was, how I don't even trust myself,
I have come to see that I am quite damaged.
On a positive note, I am compliant with my Fluoxetine 60mg /day, see a psychiatrist, see a psychotherapist, try to meditate, and go to AA.
Just about holding in there.
Love and compassion to you all.

[Dutch Uncle]

Love and compassion to you as well, dear Sigiriuk.

Keep on holding on.

We'll get there. 

[mourningdove]

Welcome, sigiriuk! 

Congratulations on your sobriety! I hope you will find this site useful in learning about C-PTSD.

Love and compassion to you.

[sigiriuk]

Thx for the warm welcome guys

[meancat]

Hello...and while I would like to say congrats on your diagnosis I fear you may take it the wrong way. But your story sounds a little like mine. I was diagnosed about 3yrs ago, finally, after 25yrs of being labeled an alcoholic. I had many periods of sobriety, 1yr here, 2yrs there. Periods of social drinking. Then lots of heavy drinking. But when I was sober my brain was crazy, things did most certainly not feel better. I finally put myself in the hospital with a suicide attempt and demanded someone find out what was wrong with me and do not tell me again that I am an alcoholic or next time I won't call 911. And with that...I finally got someone to listen to me. Actually hear what was going on beyond the drinking.

My diagnosis saved my life. Started me on a path of healing and realization of things that I had pushed very far away. I have discovered that I really never stood a chance to turn out any different , and as a matter of fact, I really could have turned out a lot worse. I found 2 therapists that I trusts completely, which is huge, because we trust no one. And I take my meds. And like you, I no longer drink, but because I no longer need to. My head is so much more quiet. Still pretty chatty, but no more squirrel on the wheel 24hrs a day.

So when I say congratulations on your diagnosis, I really mean it. Hopefully this is the beginning of a new life for you as well.

Peace.