"No one imagines that a symphony is supposed to improve in quality as it goes along, or that the whole object of playing it is to reach the finale. The point of music is discovered in every moment of playing and listening to it.
It is the same, I feel, with the greater part of our lives, and if we are unduly absorbed in improving them we may forget altogether to live them."
Alan Watts
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Much of what Watts had to say in this and other quotes of his resonates strongly with my experience on this road called cptsd. He has a lot of wisdom nuggets tucked around his writings.
This one I've found helpful whenever I sense an urge to rush to the cure (rush? I've been searching for nearly 50 years of if only thinking!). And sometimes I'm crushed realizing that, well, there may never be a defined 'cure' that I'll even recognize. Then I remember to slow down and truly 'live in the moment'--all of them, even the painful ones. Tricky to say that, though; 'now' and 'in the moment' have become such buzzwords in an age of celebrity psychobabble still promising that elusive cure-all. Anyway, I'm still learning to play this symphony en route, as it is, without regard for that defined endpoint where perfection breaks out and saves me.